AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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;we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you













;Boy I missed your kisses
all the time but this is
Twenty five minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy
I'm sorry you are
Twenty five minutes too late

maybe you did that to make me feel better,
but, sorry. you made me felt even worse.
didnt mean to drag you into this, but, sorry.i cant take it has nothing has happened. i cant.
just take it as, you've never heard it before.
sorry.

damn it.
i finally understood everything .
felt like the world's biggest idiot.
and, i just remembered sth yanli said, gullible is not in the dictionary.
damn damn damn damn damn.
at least i don't have to make wild guesses now.

today's gb sucked horribly.
josephine's absent, josie took over, and wth.
i hate her.
the badge work today was on virtuous women/why God created us.
damn, i know God's purpose for creating me.
Its to go through heartache/heartbreak.
just kidding. well, honestly, i don't know the answer.
if someone is so nice, do tell me. I want to know.

gb ended at 11, bused to inter, 58-ed to ikea.
lunched there, and started talking in the showroom.

I love GB, and i hope it will never fade. <3

well, maybe God's purpose for me is to let me join GB. :D

oh no.
i feel damn insecure right now, waking up from a dream really sucks.


gb in 1 hour time.

i hate it.
its like so unfair can?!

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you win lor,
happy? wtf.
no mood play with you,
bitch.





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Sometimes it's wrong to walk away,
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be takingI should know,
cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go


dang, the test i took from quiz box tells me that no matter how he broke my heart, i still love him.
HOW?



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I wonder how cio fair for SYF.
I've got so much to say,
but i cant think right now. :X
Hais.
Planned to start on my
Maths and design journal, but, well,
forget it.
I wanna watch Mysterious Incredible terminator. :D

I made a fool out of myself just now.
I went to the ATM, i wanted to try withdrawing money.
I tried inserting the card.
but did not know which side.
So, there am i, pushing in the card.
People were behind- amused. -.-
Then, i entered the pin.
Just wanted to try withdrawing it.
I entered the amt, $10.
i din know that the minimum amt was $20.
-.-
Throw face until dunno where.
Stupid avril tan.



Its hard to pretend you love someone when
you don't but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do.



i never wanted
to let go of your hand.

Second post of the day,
its late already.
hais, sudden thought of Melissa,
She cried in class, kudos. I would never dare cry in the class, reason?
Dont know.
YAY, they've left, Happy? Sad?
bu zhi dao, dont know la.
haiyo, so depressed.

How?
No one will care. oh, so sad. thats life.
Suan le, this post is for fun. HAha,
too bored.
i told myself that i will get started on History today.
But, as usual, talk only, no action. Hais.
LEt me bang the wall. LONG BIA! :D






I told you i needed time, you just din give me the chance.

back from TAMPINES ONEEEE! :D
Lunched at dte FISH &CO.
Went to UNI QLO or whatever you spell that. LOL.
Queued outside that bloody shop for 40--45 min. -.-
In e end, bought NTH.
Ended up walking around there.
they went to SUBWAY, EAT FLESH. LOL

I know its my fault.
Damn it.
What to do now? She's already like a chewing gum sticking to us.
Argh, damn pissed, CME ,because of her,
forced to split grp. Now, she din even do. Wtf.



I bitch you;because your a bitch. (i noe your reading)
V, tongues wag, gossips spread.
I know you hate me, neither do i like you.
You can spread, sooner or later you shud know
where this is getting you to. Stop flirting around
please. Go to geylang, that place will definetely suit you.(:
Call me a bitch? Your no better, get a lifeeee.
you think u cute ah? please la, older then me leh.
tsk tsk tsk.

Firstly, i've got a screw loose today AGAIN. -.-
DUI BU QI. SORRY LA! xD




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well, tell me what you want me to do,
do you expect me to play along?





Okay,

its 19th April, and, im 14 years and one day old-.-

Pictures first. :D

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Okay, i'll try to make this post not emo.
I'll TRY.

Yay !
I'm FOURTEEN!
LAUGHOUTLOUD!

Firstly, XIE XIE DA JIA. TYVVVVVVM.
Sorry for letting you all waste $$.
Economic crisis ya know.







I'm saying sorry first
I'm saying sorry last
I'm saying sorry for the future
but mainly for the past
I'm sorry that I was always avoiding you
and I'm sorry for making you feel tired
you were right and
you had the right to be mad
I'm sorry that you felt the
need to apologize and
I'm sorry if I've wasted your time
I'm sorry that I can only see
the good and always try to avoid the bad
I'm saying sorry for all my mistakes
I'm saying sorry for being blinded
blinded by the perfect thought
of you and me when really
we don’t have a chance
I'm the stupid one
I let you down and
I feel it deep within me
We both made some errors
and said something wrong
but that’s how life is
Nobody's perfect not even me and you
so I'm sorry for that too
And I'm sorry for everything but ...
Please forgive me
I don't expect us to go back to the
times we had once before,
but i would really want you to know.
I'm really sorry.






Okay, make this post, short and sweet.(:
firstly, i don't know why is the title of this post compromise this love. LOL.

Nvm, Its 11 nearing 12 already.
Went out w. Sheryn & co. just now to have dinner. ;D
KUISHIN BO.
haha.
So damn expensive ke yi ma?
-.-
Wanted to bus home in the beggining,
in the end, waited for the bus for like 50 min, got so damn pissed off and took a cab back home instead.
haha.

Will edit this post tmr. make it longer hopefully. (:
Oral's tmr!!!

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that
I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter
Where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

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Went TAMPINES 1 and TAMPINES MALL today after school w. Yanli, Abigail and Xiu chuan! :D
Shopped around, hoping to get a card holder.for the EZ-Link card.
Trust me, i look like SHIT. Thats why a card holder is needed.
I wanna get it replaced. The sooner the better,

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Seriously damn guilty about all the things which i've done.

Firstly,
Sheryn, SORRY.
Really sorry.
i scolded you w/o finding out what actually happened.
Dui bu qi.

Secondly,
Yan Li, SORRY.
The shorts.
Hais, mei hua jiang.
I'll try my VERY best to get the money back.
Zhen de, dui bu qi. :X

Thirdly,
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Fourthly,
I'm sorry if my reaction was too big,
but, really. You should know that i'm
not ready, and would never be.
If im not asking too much,
would you lock your blog?
SORRY.

Fifthly,
YES, i've learnt to be honest to myself.
Yeah, cant help it. BUT, i'll try to change.
Really, i swear.

Sixthly,
oh well, theres no SIX.
but, i guess sooner or later,
there will be. so , wait and see. Haha.



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EMO ready was really good.
Second chance? Definetely.
For the class, and for myself.
the example for Long bia was great,
its true, no point saying you want to change when you're not changing. (:
I'll try.





BREAKEVEN
THE SCRIPT




I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when
I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces I'm falling to pieces
(one still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

11042009
Was supposed to go out with Sheryn & co.
Somehting cropped up in the end, and ended up going for Dad's friends gathering.
Suay suay, see JAMIE. ;X

No mood to post.
Goodbye.

LALALA!
Finally back uhs!
Missed you guys like siao. xD
And, got scammed by the NF shorts supplier. -.-
effing pissed. zzz.
DUI BU QI YAN LI. :(
hai ni deng zhe me jiu, hai bei pian. :(



Speech day is OVER really OVER!
Phew, its like a HUGE, HEAVY stone removed. ;D


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Its GOOD FRIDAY today,
went out with Sheryn, to shop for the
things needed for tmr.
Went to Orchard, Taka, Heeren.
Dinnered at Ajisen. HSH @ 8++

i miss the times we had,
7 years of friendship
down the drain, i was hoping
u would change your mind,
you took all the things i did
for granted, wei shen me
ni yao zhe yang dui wo? is he
worthy to ruin our friendship?

爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你

Ah!!!!~~~
TAHAN TAHAN TAHAN AH!!!
3 MORE EFFING DAYS TO SEE THAT EFFING FACE AND MARCH WITH THOSE EFFING PEOPLE.
TAHAN! Argh, cant take it anymore. ):
Jennifer Chua is picking on me. ):
HOW!!!~~~.
Zzz.
Darn tired. Its so unfair. Luckily i changed out of my contacts, otherwise,
she'd have another thing to say about me. :(
Why oh why,
so damn stress.
hais. At least i have one less thing to worry about. (:
I REALLY HATE SPEECH DAY!
WHY IS IT THAT THEY CAN MARCH, LAUGH, TALK HAPPILY IN THE CONTINGENT WHILE I HAVE TO BE SUFFERING ALONE?
ITS SO UNFAIR. ):
Julisa from 2/3 acted close with me today, and i was freaked out.
HAHA,well, at least there's somebody.
IM SO DESPERATE FOR FRIENDS TO TALK TO DURING REHEARSAL.




Because finally,
I know I deserve better.
hais,
im still waiting for my Mr. Right. (:

I MISS CAIZIHAO~







I don't think i want this anymore,
as she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself you've left before,
this time you will stay gone that's for sure.
And he shouted something as,
she dragged her suitcase down the path
To the driveway, she had never gone that far.
Normally this would be, the time that she
would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying she got into her car.
She said, 'no, happily never after.
That just ain't for me, because finally
I know i deserve better after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall.
As she drove away she starts to smile,
realised she hadn't for awhile
No destination she drove for miles,
wondering why she stayed in such denial.
Laughing about, the way he shouted something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path,
to the driveway
She had never gone that far.
Normally this would be, the time that she
would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying as she got into her car.
She said no, happily never after.
That just ain't for me, because finallyI know,
i deserve better after all.
I'll never another teardrop fall.
I'm done, i'm done, said i'm so done.
I'm free, i'm free said i'm so free i'm so free, i'm so free.
She inhaled an air she never breathed before,
the air of no drama, no more
And she said, no happily never after.
That just ain't for me, because finallyI know,
i deserve better after all.
I'll never let another teardrop another fall.
Happily never after, that just ain't for me.
Because finallyI know, i deserve better after all.
I'll never another teardrop fall. another teardrop, fal-l
No i'm never letting,
no i'm never letting another teardrop fall.

http://www.imeem.com/graciev/music/xsKaSrPO/nicole-scherzinger-happily-never-after/







People changes ,
When they remove their masks ,
Their true colours shows.
Their attitude has shown everything.

Went for GB awards ceremony,
GOT BRONZE. CLAPS!! ;]
Met them at e!hub for breakfast and
went to the arcade. Ard, 1.15pm,
changed and taxi-eed to school and
waited for the bus to bring us to
ChristChurch sec. The school was
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
LOL, so damn big.

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I sensed your tension
You ask if I would pray
with you this time
I knew this be the night
you ask The Angel
To descend upon your sleep;
Lift this cross
If I only had one wish
I'd take your place
I shivered when you whispered;
It was time
But true to my
commitment to your plea
Tonight my love I'll engage your destiny
I must confess bemoaning for my soul
Mercy's queer temperance--
Saint or sadist
And if my passion angers
our Redeemer
May silence and lament
be my penance
I've been toldI will suffer for your peace
From the poison that
harbored in yourbrain
Paralytic dawns,and turbid
manic dusks
Your terror was A cross
I could not bare
Now my hands grasp
filthy bars of steel
Much time to muse the
ethics of justice
In hindsight---
I would do it all again.



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