AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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My posts are weird if its colourless.
So i'll just take a bit of time to copy the codes. LOL.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG TSZ HO!!! :D

GEOG CT is over,
that marks the end of the common tests! ^^
Ran 2.4 today for P.E.
I passed!
Thats just, SHOCKING.
Haha. xD

Wonder if Gb's on tmr.
Out with Abigail tomorrow. ^^







if you were just wondering if blogger went back to normal,
the answer is no.
i just used the code one by one copy and paste it.just to get the colour i want. -.-
Home ec was fun today, made pizza.It didnt taste as bad as what they say.So, yea. LOL.
Geog ct is tmr. Its the last one . HAHA.
I've got nothing much to say,
so GOODBYE! :D

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain't very far, not far from the start


Addicted to this song one year ago.
LOL.

Anyway, today's CME lesson was like the best CME leson ever?
Haha. ;D

BLOGGER IS REALLY SOME MAJOR PROBLEMS. -.-

Bugis with Abigail this sat! ^^
Going to WWX's talk too. LOL.
Got motive de leh. xD

And i found out something shocking from WWX with the help of Abigail.
LOL.

I need to do the eng newspaper report. Zzz.
If not lam lam call my mama. -.-





Love at first sight never thought it could happen to me
But you made me believe


This world just sucks, sucks ,sucks.

Everything's not done.
WWX is gonna kill me tomorrow.
What mistake did i make in my past life?
My life is just soooooooo sucky.
everything's against me,
i can NEVER get the things i want.
Things just turn out differently.
Even if i retain, it wont be shocking.

damn,
i just threw smth which meant sooo much to me away w/o realising.
Is this terrible, or just terrible. Zzz.

Ok, i'll just blame it on myself.
Nobody's to blame,


XIN TONG,
sakit,

Ah freak man,
blogger somehow went back to normal,
but i still cant edit the fonts and colours. Zzz.

It has been so long already! #$%^&
Tuition in 1 hour time.
Bored to the max.
I've got a lot of chinese homework. :X

Tomorrow's eng CT,
sure die.

There's a feeling of bitterness i dunno why.
Hais.

I think huang got the date for photo taking wrong.
She said 28th AUGUST.
I think its 28th JULY.
LOL.

Never a word, 'us' . It was just you and me, me and you from the start.


Back from Gb,
Boring day. -.-
Drills, drills, and just drills.
KOE LEFT! D:


Out to Chris's house lata.


Photoshoot on tues with Bb.
-.-

Tired with my life,
if only i could just end it.





So what if i gave everything?
I'm left with nothing.

Omg,
blogger blogger blogger.
Why cant you just go back to normallll??? D:

Maths CT today,
GONE CASE.
Forget it man, study, also fail, Dont study, also fail.
No difference. -.-
Waste time, waste paper to study. Zzz.

Gave Koe the present.
Gb tomorrow.
No mood.

Goodbye.

Excellent man.
After so long, there's still problems with blogger.
Or is it my com,
Shall try it on another one later. LOL.

Koe's leaving tomorrow. D:
Super sad.
His card is doneee!

Went to UrbanWrite again to get one more piece of paper and a marker as its not enough.
$$, T.T
LOL.

I just feel like vomiting now. Argh.
Too full.
Shermaine calls me 失恋, out of love,
Just because of what happened ytd.
haha. xD

Mum still haven hang the national flag out. -.-


Oh ya, before i forget.
CAN I BOOK GBRIGADE ON NATIONAL DAY??? :D
We go Marina see fireworks. LOL.

I somehow got the definition of love during maths today.
Its the speed of wind.
Comes and go like the speed of wind.
Just imagine how fast it is.
If you're able to catch up, thats good for you.
If you cant, thats too bad.
In some cases, it may just sweep you off your feet, without you realising.
Never will they stop for you.
However,
as time goes by, you realise,
There's nothing broken,
Its just your heart. ^^


DAUGHTRY ROCKS!!! :D



you did your part well as my perfect guy.
But i never really did my part as your girl


WTF,
When is blogger going back to normal???!!!
I cant change my font colour. Zzz.
I wanna commemorate national day by using red for font leh! D:

Anyway, Koe koe's present is bought already. :D
Sheaffer's pen,
Pretty pen. ^^
haha.
Went with Abigail and Rachel,
lunched art kopitiam first,
then went to my METRO, people's BHG. LOL.
Bought it, went shop shop ,
then went T1.
Went to UrbanWrite,
bought materials for making the card.
Say sayonara to my $$. D:

Needa collect $$ from them tomorrow.
Hopefully they will be automatic. xD

Anyway, today TanZZ nvr come.
What a great day! :D
Crapped with Shermaine and Fiona for the entire two periods.
Found out alot of things.
Which i swear, IT MADE MY DAY!!! :D

Haha, shocking, but happy. There's art tomorrow. CLAPS! xD

i want blogger to got back to normal asap. I cant stand posting w/o a range of colours. LOL.

其实失恋是一种力量,
因为它能让你回想,
是在哪个站该下却没下,
才来到一个最不想到的地方.
The hardest part is always letting go.
But somethings are like this.
If its not meant to be yours,
you gotta set it free.
If its meant to be yours,
It'll come back to you someday.




Its not about losing the memories,
its just letting go~

Blogger's still having problems. -.-
Hais.

I've been failing all my tests.
Even the simplest geog.
Flunked my science today.
Gonna buck up for maths tmr.
Wun be surprised if i retained.
Oh my god. I just feel like dying. D:

THIS SIMPLE THING CALLED LOVE

How simple is it then? Cause it doesn't seem simple to me at all.



Its hard to love you,
but its even harder to hate you.

有人说:如果你不爱一个人,请放手,好让别人有机会爱他.有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃.人生中有许多种爱,但别让爱成为一种傷害.我选择沉默.当一个男人为一个女人哭了,那说明他真的爱了.当一个女人为一个男人哭了,那说明她真的放弃了.
People say: You will have to let go if you do not love that person, so as to allow others to have a chance. There are somethings in life that you can not possess if they are not meant to be yours, while there are other things in life that you are fated to let go no matter how reluctant you are to be apart. In life, you will witness different kinds of love but do not ever let love be hurtful to you. I have chosen to be withdrawn from love. When a guy starts to tear, it proves that he loves her. However when a girl cries for a guy, it shows that she has given up.

Surprisingly, i can still post despite blogger having problems. -.-Stayed home entire day, woke up at 11.30am. I broke my record. LOL.

I agree with everything, except for the part, 'However when a girl cries for a guy, it shows that she has given up. '

Will talk about this when blogger aint having any problems. So i can change the fonts and such. LOL .


Anyway, out of boredom, i went to Omegle, by chance, i talked to a guy from Indonesia, age 17. We started talking about our country. LOL.

He said he wants to come to singapore to get a degree. That made me feel ........ angry with myself? I don't know why. they are trying so hard to save money, just to come here and study.

We are already living here, yet we're letting time pass, doing nothing. Why? I guess we're just spoilt. We take everything for granted. Just like what i'm doing now. When i lose it, i will then regret. Thinking, I should have, blah blah blah....

Oh well, i'll just learn my mistake.
No point thinking of how to change the past. LOL.

ILOVEDAUGHTRYMANNNNN! :D

I cant change the colour, i cant change the size. -.-

Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain.

[Edited at 1.25pm]

I'm on MC tomorrow again. -.-
Was so close to going out with Sheryn and co. today to catch Threads Of destiny.
Now, No more. D:

Went to the doctor again.
The doctor say i'm suffering from Gastric smth.
Idk whats that. Lol,

Hais, i'll just go watch my FA ZHENG XIAN FENG. LOL.
Its a nice show. :D

I love daughtry's new album . ^^

Learn my lesson.
You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike that match
You've found a field of flames
You'd think that I'd learn the cost of love
And paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Well it turns out
I haven't learned a thing

September
All the things I still remember
Summers never looked the same
Years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
In the middle of September
We still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

Tennessee Line
I know I must be doing something wrong
Head the other way back to where I started out
Ask myself if I can turn it all around tonight
And stop living with doubt


What i meant to say
And I just thought that you should know
That I'd been holding on while you'd been letting go
Can I be so bold
'Cause all this talking all to you's just getting old
Well, it's not too late to say it right this time
'Cause I know I said I'm sorry
But that's not what I meant to say

Call your name
You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love was meant to be forever, now or never
Seems too discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars
So can you remain
When I call your name



Daughtry is 30 this year.
haha.
I'm not being stupid posting these lyrics here,
don't you find them meaningful? LOL.
Anyway, Dad allowed me to not go for my Ah ma's ddinner on 090809.
So i'm free free.
Jio me out please, please , please,
treat it as doing a good deed by jioing me out. xD
can go watch fireworks also. LOL.






I'm suffering from, headache, runny nose and a major sore throat.
Kinda expected, -.-

Anyway, reached home at 0030++ today/last night.
damn tired.

I felt cheated. Zzz.
Went Centrepoint for dinner with Lucas, Sheryn, Bryan, ZhiWei and a WHOLE BUNCH OF PEOPLE WHOM I DUNNO. LOL.

That dinner was awkward, weird, weird, and just weird.
oh well, its over.
Dinner ended at around 9.30pm, then went to Cuppage.
Its a place, or should i say a street, with alot of... Restaurants? But its open, in the sense that, no roof. No doors, just a place where ang mohs hang out. LOL.


Ok, i'm having tuition later on.
will be editing this post to make it longer.

Surprisingly, i still have time to use my computer. LOL

Totally rushed gor time. so well,

this post is for fun . :D

I developed the pictures already. ^^



I look so weird now.

Too lady. D:





I'm bored to the maximum, maximum, maximum. Zzz.
thats why im here for my second post. -.-


Kala didn't come, two free periods.
Good things always happens when im not in school.
So, for the benefit of others, i should
try to get myself absent regularly. LOL.


Anyway, time flies.
What was i doing a year ago?
*thinks really hard*
???????
Two years ago?
*thinks superly hard*
Fooling around with classmates in class,
sitting in the examination 'style'
crapping with Kaichin, Zhongkwang, Brian.
Fighting with the girls, hating each other,
having our own 'cliques', vying for the first.
Oh god, i miss 2007.
Oh please, let time turn back.


Humans just cant get enough .




I watched the news in the morning,
the focus is on NDP 2009.
Lol, its in less than a month?
Ah freak, i wanna go.

http://www.ndp.org.sg/themevideo.php

Gongshang's inside. LOL.
The theme for this year is
Come Together – Reaching Out, Reaching Up

A little sad though,
there's no march in this year. D:
I've been waiting since this year's Jan?
Hais.

I supposed i'll be bored to death on national day,
where should i go? Hm.
Definitely not staying at home.









Probably going to town later on.
Burn my pocket. :D







You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real




tears are words from the heart that cant be spoken


Didn't attend school, im terribly bored now. D:

Can't get to sleep last night, woke up with a major headache,

washed up, bathed, put on my contact lenses.

then i decided not to attend school. And, Mum allowed. -.-

LOL.

Ytd was an almost perfect day. Haha,

Gb day's over, got my fortnight card, begged people for $$,

Surprisingly, HaoJun andd Grant both gave me 5$.

HAHAHA, :D

After school,

went home, bathed, changed,

went to Tampines Mrt to wait for Rachel.

Trained to Pasir Ris, waited for You Yan,

Bused to E!Hub and met up with Cindy.

Had late lunch at Fish&Co.

Coincidentally, saw Mr.Koe there. ^^

Watched the 5.10pm movie, was late by 15 min?

The show started already.

The show was not really scary compared to Drag me to hell.

But our screams added to the sound effect. LOL.

The guys were funny.

Their facial expressions became Cindy and my joke of the day.

xD













Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Whoever who said that time was the best medicine was just lying.


I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.


But why cant we be given a second chance?
what has faded, is already lost
really?

When you feel like falling down, don't give up. Try again.
I've fallen down so many times, yet i still dont learn my mistakes.

After the long talk with Atiyya, i realised what i'm doing, how many mistakes i've made, But, i still don't understand what made me do all those.

Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing
Love's weird, when you make them your everything, when they're gone, you're left with nothing,
if you don't make them your everything, they'll claim that we don't respect them.







The spaces between your fingers were
created so that another's could fill them in.


No need for comments,
tyvm,

I guess what i got today was just disappointment.
Oh well,
I think I'm falling sick soon. I feel cold when its scorching hot outside now.
AH, damn. Hope i could tahan till GB day,
Hais.
so tired.
SPEECHLESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Forget it.

[Added in at 9.11pm]

I'm back from the airport. ^^

Im super happy right now. HAHA. :D
Trained to Bugis first, then shopped around,
went to a shop called Pure Milk i think.
Bought two red polo tees there. Offer going on,
Singapore's 44th birthday, spent 44$ get lifetime membership.
Dunno for what. Haha.
Sheryn bought a black one and a red one.
And, i just realised, in Parco Bugis, there are so many
male apparel shops.
Went walking around with Sheryn&bf, Lucas.
Burnt a hole in my pocket. D:

And, i saw a super nice bag from NewUrban,
but its so expensive la. NO $$.
I shall start saving for my MAC and bag.

After which, trained down to Tanah Merah, went to the airport.
Lucas's dunno who brought his luggage there,
checked in, went for dinner @ Swensens.

Around 7.30pm, he went into the departure hall or wtv you call that.
Then went home, here i am blogging again.

There's a recession this year,
hopefully it'll not affect the Gb fortnight.

Been smsing Atiyya!, and there's a meaningful part,
LOL.

If you can move on, then move on.
If you can't move on but it's killing you, try to move on.
But if there's still hope, don't move on.

YAY, MY KARMA REACHED 48!
thats random~

Im gonna work superly hard this year,
although its a different year, everything is different.
omg, Lucas boarding the plane in 45 min time?
HE'S NOT REPLYING ME!
ARGH, is Taiwan infected by swine??????




I try hard not to think,
i try hard not to look behind,
i try hard to move on,
i try hard to smile,
but it just cant seem to work.


You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like im fallin'and I
Am lost in your eyes

The school's getting too paranoid about H1N1.
Was being sent to the infirmary room just right after flag raising.
Mum came at 9? Went for breakfast at Central then home.
Its so stupid.
I'm perfectly fine. HELLO, My temperature is 37.8, then 37.7, then 37.4.
37.4 leh. You call that fever?
Damn it, and now, i didn't get to get the GB fortnight card. @#$%^&
ARGH, super pissed.

Im going out later! Being sent home is a good thing,
i can go out earlier. HAHAHA. ^^
Goodbye. :D

Anyway, Lucas's leaving at 9pm. HAHAHA.
TAKECARE, Lol.




All these i know, i try
and try, i just cant
say goodbye,




Its a terrible day for me.

In the morning , miss huang told our class something shocking.
NO, its only shocking to me. -.-
And then,
after school, went to look for Miss woon, not knowing she has oral.
Bused to whitesands with Jia En,
i waited for Bus 3 for like 20 min?
I was already late. -.-
When i reached Tampines Inter, there were constructions going on
so the pathway was damn cramped. So i walked the other way.
THEN , A BUS HORNED AT ME,
I swear i was THIS close to getting hit.
It was 4.15 at that time.
And i was 1 hr late,
When i reached. THEY WERE ALL NOT FREE AT THAT MOMENT.
Sheryn was doing a manicure, Zhi Wei and Lucas went to watch Transformers.
Hello??~~~~ Im only an hour late you know.
-.-
No choice, but to wait. As usual, i've got no patience,
So , i went to Fairprice to get something for my mum.
I bought milk without realising i'm buying milk. -.-
No choice, bused home first.
Showered, change blah blah blah,
bused out again.
Thank God i have concession. LOL.
The same thing happened. This time round,
it was a BMW which horned at me. =.=
Then received a LONG message from woon woon,
XinYing and I are raising the flag. -.-
I think i would rather stand in the contingent, giving timing.
Just imagine if the flag is not tied properly.
"WE THE CITIZENS OF SINGAPORE, PLEDGE OURSELVES, AS ONE UNITED PEOPLE.'"
*" BOOM"*
FLAG DROPS DOWN. How malu will that be? LOL.

Its just 3 more days. HAHAHA. :D

I've made up my mind to study hard.................... NOT.
Its just cant get in. Argh.
Geography test's tomorrow. -.-

SURPRISINGLY, I ONLY SPENT LESS THAN 8 HOURS THINKING ABOUT THAT
THING WHICH MISS HUANG SAID. MOST PROBABLY, IM ALRIGHT. LOL.
IMMGONNAAPARTICPATEEEINNNTHEEEASSEMBLYYYPROGRAMMEEEEWHICHHHWEEEEHAVEEE
TOOOCOOPERATEEEWITHHHTWOOO-THREEEE.
just awkward i supposed, but, WHAT DOESN'T KILLS YOU ONLY MAKES YOU STRONGER.
IMMMNOTTAAASCAREDYYYCATTT.


Is it fate? Is it destiny? Is this what God is trying to tell me?
Or this is just a test i'll have to go through?



I just love this quote la. Cos its true. {:

Currently listening to a song by Kris Allen, No boundaries, and i linked it to,
Love has no boundaries. LOL.
Nevermind, and, just ignore that previous post. :D

I came home earlyyyy today, and i doubt i'm going out later for dinner.
I'm gonna miss the sushi trip, but who cares. LOL.

I swear i need to sleep.
Im so tired.
Hais. I'm still brooding over the fact that cca is suspended.
I NEED GB YA KNOW. no, MOE doesn't know. -.-

and, miss woon nvr come, no uniform for the sec ones. D:






i've made it through the pain.
now, i feel love.

The moon is really round, bright, big today~



Kinda miss the time we talk on the phone through the night,
with the bright moon hanging on the sky.




5 more days to Gb day~
screw the swine flu,
cca suspended. -.-

Living is getting stupid for me.
Been rather fucked up these few days.
At least i was happy yesterday.
I can't believe i went to SSS to watch AYG, to support S'pore for swimming.
The entire atmosphere was high enough for me to forget my troubles. LOL.
Today was fun until dinner time.
Sheryn came over and baked . Wanted to bake a sponge cake but ended up baking a lamington or whatever you call that,
that lady turned my kitchen upside down. -,-

She came at 1, left at 5.

Then Mum brought us out for dinner at Crystal jade.
Got soooooo angry by her, its either i had a mood swing, or its just her who is toooo much.
Blogger is having some problems i suppose, i cant seem to upload any pictures. -.-

There's school tomorrow, as usual, i did not do any homework.
And, I'm blaming myself for being such a bitch for idk what reason.
I'm super tired of being used,
I'm damn fucked up about the fact that I WAS THE ONE WHO SAID THAT FIRST AND YOU HAPPILY SNATCH IT FROM ME!
You call that friends? OH PUH-LEASE, friends don't do that. Friends dun copy, they influence

Damn pissed off. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
i suppose you don't know I'm talking about you, so, whatever.
Since you think so highly of yourself.



indeed i admit i'm changing into someone i don't know.
but that's part of life i guess.
i change, you people ask why, when you people change
have you guys asked yourself why you've changed? No i suppose.
so, i dun noe how to answer these questions.
as long as my conscience is clear.

There's a clear line between friends and more than friends.

Anyway,
yesterday's activity did not go well. LOL.

In the afternoon, went to Heart Of God church .
Reached there, took temperature.
37.9. Why cant i get that type of temperature in school? -.-

Then, went to Josie's condo.
Walked the wrong way, LOST.
Then when we went in, settled down in the function room.
started games.
Went to the pool. Got complained by residents.
Unhappy, left.

Settled dinner at Pizza Hut @Tampines Mall.
Arcade @ T1.
HSH@ 9.


I'm having tuition later. $%@#*

hopefully will be able to go out tomorrow. LOL



只是我們都清楚地知道
心裡還有個劃不完的句號
只怪你和我相愛得太早
對於幸福又了解的太少
於是自私讓愛變成煎熬
付出了所有卻讓彼此想逃跑


I can't move forward
While looking behind~

Few more hours to bonding time, and i haven't prepared the games.
-.-
Oh well, i doubt there will be more than ten people la.
How to play~ Hais.
xiang ban fa. :X

What am i supposed to do? I'm always looking back, thinking where would we be now, hoping for the impossible, when jia en asked me that question, i din not even hesitate and gave a answer which shocked me too.

You're so much more
Than a memory
Cos you're so much more
Than a memory
So don't close the door
On what still can be
Cos you're so much more
Than a memory






GBRIGADE! <3

i look like a retard in both pictures, so it doesnt matter. LOL.


Looking forward to tomorrow , Gb bonding! ^^



I was yours to hold~


舊愛還是最美 有時分手不是誰負了誰
兩個對的人卻在錯的時候愛了一回
後悔時的淚水 又特別讓人覺得無力疲憊


I don't know what to do.
I guess this is what they meant by sandwiched.
Gosh, I'M DYING.
HUMAN, H-U-M-A-N. I emphasize time over time. I'm only a human.
LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE! D:
I can't stand it already, i have my school, my own friendship problems, why are you people still trying to add up to it?
AHHHH, oh my tian.

There's a few good news, Common test's postponed till 20th July. WOW, how nice of the school :}
Ten anni's tmr, FINALLY! :D
And, i'm going shopping tmr before ten anni, ^^
Lastly, there's a.......... idk what to call that, just call it the bonding session with Gbrigade on Saturday! :DD

Huang Huang din come today, but there was still maths. -.-
I call the Chinese teacher DUMB, cos she actually believed me that i did my Holiday homework. LOL.
Home Ec was totally life-less, we were playing board games. -.-
English was even more terrible. Lam Lam was insulting us as sloths/slugs. NO BACKBONE.
Oh, WHATEVER.

Settled lunch at Whitesands,Kopitiam with Cindy and Waikeng.
It was raining, got postponed by 30 min, in the end, started at 4.30++ ended at 6.



Gems may be precious, but friendship is priceless.
Friends are angels sent down to Earth to make good days and help us find our way.
Friends can make you laugh like no one else can
Friends make life a little sweeter.
Friends are made for caring and sharing.
A real friend is there when you need them.
A friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
Good times are even better when shared with a friend
A true friend is someone you can trust with all your secrets.

I ask myself, which are true?
Maybe to some friends, they are.
What about those who are consistently making use of you, stabbing you?
Its not nice really. I've said this before,
Don't do what you don't want people to do to you.
Do you want someone to make use of you?
I dun think so.
Then why are you making use of me?
i don't think anyone will like it, same here.
I hate the feeling of being used. You're my friend, i believe you understand.
Why is it that you tell people how bad i was, complaining to someone else about my fucking attitude, then when there's conflicts between you two, you come to me, acting like nothing has happened, forgetting all the bad things you said about me.
Wow, is that considered brain wash? Or is that what we call, beggars are not choosers.
You've got no choice, but to stick with me.
I'm not a charity organisation you get it.
Neither am i someone who adopts another person when they have friendship problems.
If that's the price i have to pay for being nice.
Sorry, i will stop.
The thing which i hate most in a friendship is being used. Forget about the gossiping, stabbing. Cos I believe that there's karma.
So now i know, I'm only worth of being used. Nothing else.



Problems after problems, conflicts after conflicts, fights after fights,
when is this gonna end?



上天讓我們相遇得太早
對於緣分卻又給得太少
才讓我們只能陷在回憶中懊惱


I'm tired of learning life the hard way,
i wish being strong was easy.


NOBODY BEGGED YOU TO READ, DON LIKE IT? JUST FUCK OFF. KEEP THE STUPID/CHILDISH COMMENTS TO YOURSELF, WHEN IN THE WORLD DID I SAY MY ENG WAS PERFECT? IF IT WAS PERFECT, I WOULD HAVE WRITTEN A BOOK ON HOW PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE WASTING THE OXYGEN, FOOD, RESOURCES ON EARTH. DAMN YOU.




IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH THE WAY HE'S TREATING ME, TELL HIM. NOT COMPLAINING TO OTHERS ABT THE THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE, MAKING THEM WASTE THEIR SALIVA TO 'REPRIMAND' ME, ITS NOT GONNA HELP GIRL, COS I'M NOT THE AVRIL I USED TO BE. CANT YOU SEE HE'S TREATING YOU DIFFERNTLY ALR? OH PUH LEASE, ASK YOURSELF, ONE STUPID QUESTION, WHO DO YOU THINK HE WILL BELIEVE? YOU, ME?
I KNOW YOURE NOT THAT DUMB. I'M NOT GONNA RUN AWAY. I KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS, ITS KARMA BODOH.




I'M TIRED OF BEING NICE TO PEOPLE.

I've just realised how blessed i was, Its weird really, only when you lose something, then you will realise the importance to you. Isn't it a little too late to be saying all these now?
I'm tired of school. How i wish i could just contract swine flu and die. :X
So much things changed.
During sec one, so pure, so innocent, so simple.
Ok, im just 14, and i think of dying. OMG. But i can't die, cos there's no Gb in heaven. LOL.
I din bus to school with Abigail today, cos my Mum wanted to bring me. And Abigail said she's afraid of my Mum. -.- This is funny.
The short journey of ten minutes made my Mum agree to something. LOL.
Anyway, its not important, just SHOCKING. xD

There was one period of home ec today, and the teacher is FIERCE.
No mood for tmr's lesson alr.

Its first of July, Time flies.
Common test's coming, its scaring me.
I might just flunk everything. Esp Science.
Geog will be another one.
Ah, who cares.

There's dance tomorrow. It'll be the LAST practice before the actual day oon FRIII! :D
Its like the best news to me now, cos everything's just screwed up.
Most probably, after the dance, we'll not be as close to the Sec Ones alr, since we're not gonna spent much time together. D:

I'm not doing literature already. CANT BE BOTHERED. And, some teachers are plain stupid, or should i say, naive.

I'm gonna watch teeeveee!
Goodbye! :D


我不是不想爱，只是害怕受伤害。
i might be selfish, but that's the
last thing i can do to protect myself.