AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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“You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess”

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if you're going to walk out of my life , don't leave any footprints.

Today's the last day of school . No idea why , i feel sad.
The class was so bare , so naked after use your hands campaign, just like when we first entered the class this year. Decorated it , in the end , we removed it.
2 years with this class just passed like this. In the beginning of 2008 , 1/6 , so united . Won the Cheering competition . Qin han was still with us . The starting of this year , got 2 best class award , without Qin han.
So many things happened in just 2 years . Forming cliques , quarrelled , changed clique. Happened most of the time. Stabbing in the class was commonly seen since last year. but i guess that's what makes it fun.
ihatemyselfforhatingmyclass.
" you won't cherish it , until you lose it. "
How long do i need to learn from my mistakes? How much more mistakes do i have to make until i can learn to make it right?
Okay i should stop before i snip an emotion nerve.

CLASS CHALET IS NEXT THURSDAY!!!!! WOOHOO! :D

I'M SUPER DUPER EXCITEDDDD!

Staying over for the night i guess. Hahaha. ;D
Kay , Gb's finally on tomorrow. ^^
Wonder when we are gonna get promoted again , BB's getting promoted tomorrow. LOL.
I have no idea if the Halloween trip is still on. :X
Okay , i'll end here. LOL
guess i'll just stop here, why cant i just make up my mind. i have to stop waiting.but i just cant move on.

THANK GOD I WAS WRONG.

My blog is screwed , yea , i know . D:

我关上了门最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神
才能让失去你变的更完整
窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成真了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛
才发现失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来你只是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好
清晨的街灯唤开了城市中的心门
我的等待成真了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆里狂奔
才了解失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好
多想再一次紧紧的拥抱
就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少我都想要
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好
让回忆继续反复炫耀
原来失去对彼此都不好

一秒也好 by 卓文萱

i guess i should give myself a chance. If you're back before i leave for my camp . I'll take a chance. :) I'm serious.


if you see me walking by, and the tears are in my eyes,
Look away, baby, look away.

I guess I've made a mistake , and i din realise this mistake of mine till now.
Who am i to judge people? Nobody's perfect .
I think I'm having my retribution.
"What goes around , comes around."
It might come back in the same form, it might not. Worst still , taking something away from
me which means alot to me. Camp unity's on . 老天真的是在捉弄我，我做错了什么？为什么这样对我？Not being fair to me at all . Or should i say , life's never fair. Get used to it , and I'll be fine.
Someone told me , Praying is like exchanging , when you get what you want , you'll have to exchange something with it.
No idea if its true , but if it is , i would not pray for anything . After all , I'll have to lose something.
Kay , shall not think too much , what's meant to be , will be.

Done the subject combinations today.
CANT BELIEVE I PUT 3/7 AS FIRST CHOICE LEH!
Aiya , nehmind , wont so suay one . My results also can't make it ah. LOL.
3/7 , 3/6 , 3/4 , 3/8 , 3/5.
This shows how much i hate history. Hahaha. ;D
Hope it'll be less than 100. ^^

Huang huiling sucks to the fucking max man.
LAST SLOT AT ALOHA LOYANG , DIE DIE DOWAN BOOK. TMD.
Today's some one's egg crack. LOL . Never talk in class , :) GOOD.

Sum up this weekend of mine.
It spells fun. :D
Saturday ,
Morning went Raffles city with Sheryn , Bryan went for the Human race, 10km organised by Nike. The shirt for the event is nice. RED. :) Went shopping , walked around , lunched, blah blah blah.
In the evening , went to Wild wild wet with sophia and rachel. Kinda empty , but it was really fun. Haha ,
went to Mac after which , Home at 2330.
Sunday ,
went to Orchard early in the morning with Zhiwei , Charlyn , Alpha at 9 , went to the Thai embassy. Red cross was having a charity bazaar there and we have 2000SGD worth of vouchers. -.-
Spent 3 hours there and finally used up the vouchers. LOL.
After which , went to ION for lunch and shopped around.
Bought a pair of slippers. LOL.
In the evening , we played host and brought Zhiwei's overseas exchange programme friends to 'tour' S'pore. LOL. Nothing much to elaborate. Home @ 2300.

I'M SUPER DUPER LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS THURSDAY . SWIMMING CARNIVAL OHHHHH! xD
THE BEST THING IS , 'm reporting in polo tee. ;)
IS IT HEAVEN OR HEAVEN? LOL , but i don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do.
Whatever it is , hopefully they wont ask me to get wet , serve the teachers , or help Ong. LOL.
Okay ,
that's all .
I WANNA GO BUGIS AND 求签 , Hahaha , I'm desperate for an answer. :X


keep holding on ,

Okay , i'm done with the elearning , damn bored now. Wonder if i'm able to get my ass outta the house.
LOL.
Its 10.32 am. And i'm feeling sleepy,
Cant get to sleep last night. :S
Woke up at 07.30 am today. Hais.

I have a hunch about something , but no evidence . This is weird . I hope its not you, but...
I believe if my blog is not locked , mine would be spammed too. LOL.
Wonder whose that lifeless bitch / bastard.
On the phone with Sheryn now , kay , might blog at night?
Bye.
Who leaves a deeper impression?
The one that made you cried, or the one that made you smiled?

the one who made you cry.

I just realised this is the 201th post, not very important though.
Thank God i passed everything . Lol , not a good pass , but oh well , its better than nothing. :)
Kay , I'm not gonna hide anything in this post of mine ,
cos I'm tired of making my posts look like a ...... (cant find a suitable word) LOL.
At least for this post . No highlighting , whatever shit.

I'm seriously damn bored. Its not even the holidays , but i already feel like dying. Lol.
I just made a decision , and i believe that I'm gonna regret it.
I regret not going to the airport . Really , no idea why.
Sorry for being so fickle - minded , shouldn't be so selfish yea .
Forget about it.

On the bus today , I saw _ _ _ _ _ , damn funny . I so scary meh , need run away anot?
Tsk , guilty - conscience. LOL. Laughed all the way , went Super dog for interview , doubt i will get the job , so many applicants . Haha. ;D

Let me think what else to add ,
Oh , i remember , Are you stupid or stupid?
Can't you see i don't like you? If not for _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ , i wouldn't even talk to you kay , just feel like giving you a smack in your face. Smile smile , feel like puking kay , disgusted . Even if you think i don't have the right to detest you ,whatever. My mouth , my fingers , my brain , i take control , not happy , sorry , cant do anything. Go find someone to complain lor. :)
And , can i say that you seriously have no fucking sense of originality , copy copy , how many things you want to copy you tell me , tsk . And , please learn to appreciate people around you, not by using them to get them to lunch with you for God's sake.
Hahaha , ;D No matter what i type , you wouldn't think its you , cos apparently , you have no sense of shame. LOL.

Hm , what else ,
Gb's off this week , sadded . So long no Gb liao , D:
Camp unity , sayo nara , a fact that can't be changed.
Sua , mei you jiu mei you , tian zhu ding de.

Involved as a student helper during swimming carnival. Lol .
Wonder what to do. Funny.
Kay , thats all.
Now i can just hope that i wouldn't rot at home tomorrow.
3/4 , here i come. :D

Okay , got back all my results.
Managed to pass everything borderline. -.-
I guess i'll fail maths overall. So there'll be one subject being underlined in my report book. LOL.
Doubt there'll be any distinctions. ):

i can't believe i passed chinese. D: D:
I thought i was gonna fail . Hahaha. ;D
My Home ec coursework pulled my overall down. @#$%^&
I was still so happy when i got my paper back. Damn.
I know i can't cook , but don't need like that right. Zzz.

Kay , they're bbq-ing @ Chris's house now.
Tsk , tomorrow got school , cant go.

I like Avril Lavigne's songs.
Hahaha, ;D very random of me.

Anyway , i hate huanghuang .
Zzz. Chalet her dad one ah, tsk , next week then say , no brains or what.
Chalet no need book one ah. brainless bimbo.
Draw lots for swimming. -.- Too free or what. Ownself swim la.
Kay , class was very drama during science. Joseph and Grant was fighting at the back of the class.
Very funny , very interesting. Hope this could happen everyday. Haha. ;D
Sadist. :S

Might consider putting back the archives , since someone is removed from the readers
for fun peace and laughter.
Okay , i got nothing to do. Really nothing. Think i should remove the countdown thingy already. The sight of it just makes my heart ache. D:
Good bye. :D
Guess 438 of waiting wont get me anywhere, camp's cancelled. Thats my answer. i dont even have to wait for camp. thats the answer. 438 days. 说长不长，说短不短. But how am i supposed to wait like this? Forget it.

I'm damn pissed right now.
YOU DONT HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHTS TO INTERFERE IN MY
LIFE. WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? EVEN MY MUM DOESNT TREAT ME LIKE THIS,
YOU THINK YOU BIG? WHERE BIG? KNN. YOU THINK YOU CUTE? PLEASE LA, EVEN
PIG CUTER THAN YOU KAY. HOW OLD LIAO, STILL SO CHILDISH AH? PARENTS
NEVER TEACH YOU CANNOT ANYHOW MALIGN PEOPLE IS IT? NEED ME TEACH? ANYHOW BARK IN
FRONT OF PEOPLE , CLOSE YOUR EYES USE YOUR BUTT THINK, HE BELIEVE ME OR YOU? YOU
TOO BORED OR TOO BORED? YOU WANT TO PLAY HOW LONG? YOU TELL ME , I PLAY WITH
YOU. WANT BARK , GO GEYLANG.
P.S
I'M NOT EVIL, JUST LETTING YOU HAVE A TASTE OF YOUR OWN
MEDICINE.


Kay ,
I'm done, LOL.
Got back my results , not good , not bad.
Borderline. LOL.
Except for maths , always a failure in maths. LOL.
And, i passed science for the FIRST time. HAHAHA. ;D
I finally ordered the lenses from refinedshoppers. Lol.
Its gonna arrive next month! YAY! ^^
Kay, goodbye. :)
&, i'm leaving plurk to die. hahahaha. ;D
There's a feeling inside me, something which i can't describe, fear or disappointment? No more camp unity, there's a strange feeling inside of me. worried ? fear? disappointed? can't seem to find a word to describe it. I've been looking forward to it since so long ago, sir say dont have, all gone. Not fair. ):


说著下雨了
我忽然明了
说好的明天我们一去不逃
你说分手好吗
我说好吧
沉默那么痛呀
雨点越来越大
你想一想
解释我生命中与你完美的笑
说好的明天我们最后去不到
解释我生命中用你最美的笑
难道你还没看到
整个天慢慢灰了
你说的我总做到
就除了把你给忘掉
难道你还没听到
我的心慢慢碎了
连电话我都删掉
可是你的笑怎么清除掉
忘也忘不掉
忘也忘不掉

Sad song , sadded. Lol.
Going out later with my niang. I don't know what to do now.
Getting back results tomorrow. I'm prepared for the worst . HAHAHA. ;D
Didn't sleep well last night , very tired now. Hais. I'm running out of contact lens. D: D: D:
Mum asked me to wear specs. -.- N-O
NO!
LOL.


A dream will always be a dream , when i wake up , i realised that was nothing , but a dream. That hurts, for no specific reason , i just hoped that i wouldn't wake up from that dream of mine, cos it was just too nice, too real.

Okay, thats damn random , but nevermind. (:

I tried very hard to move on, do you know that? You texted me, 'Mind reading a post from my blog? You don't have to reply, just hope you would read it. ' I read it, first thought. Why are you making me feel like a sinner? WHY?! I'm tired , really. I've changed . Alot. I don't want to be a girl, who cries alot. Crying doesn't resolve any problems. Too late now, but at least i've realised it. When i told you, i'll leave it to fate. I mean it. It wasn't just a passing remark. Just hope you know that i mean every word i say. About him, i've waited for 400++ days, for what? NOTHING. how many 400 days will i have ? Will i waste it again? When is doomsday? Will i have any regret? No one knows. You're heading for Cambodia to do voluntary work. I look up to you, really. As a good friend , a good brother. Nothing else. Kay, i wouldn't be going to the airport, guess you're waiting for that answer. Bye.

“Better by far you should forget and smile than you should remember and be sad.” – Christina Rossetti.


Most probably i'll be rotting at home today.
Mum went back on her word. She's supposed to bring me out today to Orchard. ):
Sadded.
Well, think on the brighter side,
i'm going out tomorrow. LOL.
Feel so lifeless nowadays. My phone bill came.
Outgoing exceeded by 130+ minutes. D:
Pay myself , no choice. Hahaha.
Approximately 25 more days to Gb camp, excited. ^^

Wonder if we will have a class chalet.
8 more days in school, sayonara 2/6.
LOL, that sounds so sad.

I'm damn bored. D:
Feel like baking , but don't know what to bake.
Feel like going out , but today Sunday.
Feel like screaming , but people will think i have a screw loose.
Feel like crying , but don't know what to cry for.
Feel like sleeping , but just can't sleep.
Feel like bowling , but i can't go out.
Feel like watching Sorority row , but its Nc 16.
HOW FU*KING PATHETIC AM I?

No shows to watch , nothing to do. Might as well. Nevermind.
I'm gonna find some games to kill time. Or maybe just pick a fight with someone to keep myself occupied.
Kay , thats not a very good idea. LOL.
Okay, bye bye. :D

The Tables have Turned And I’ve Finally Learned
That this is Makin Up for Every Day I was Gone
And that’s Why I’m Concerned
But Now it’s Confirmed
That You Spread Your Wings and Learned to Fly All Alone

EL YOU SEE AYE ASS.
SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME.

Okay, end of exams. I feel so lag. D:
Anyway, my blog is super duper wordy nowadays.
Pictureless, nothing motivational, just plain boring. -.-

Went to Tampines mall after school yesterday , went to Seoul Garden.
Smelled like bbq after the meal. LOOL.
Went shopping around, damn boring, nothing much.
Abigail bought her stuffs.
Home @ 7.

This morning woke up at 6.50am. -.-
Went ECP cycle with Sheryn, Bryan, Lucas, Alpha . Super healthy right. -.-
Came back to tampines at around 10am , went to Cafe cartel for breakfast.
Went shopping again , bought a top. ^^
Abigail wants to quit. Should i work too? Hais , confused. :S
Walked around , the guys went E!Hub for pool , Sheryn and i stayed in Tampines.
Went to Teadot and spent 4 hours there. -.-
Home @ 6.
Mum and Dad went for the concert at Marina or wherever.
And i'm hell bored.

Exams are over , i can predict my reaction when i receive my papers. HAHAHA.
Nevermind, retain also nevermind, LOL.
I'm so damn free , i've got all the time in the world to think :)

IMISSGBRIGADE! D: ONE MORE WEEK TILL GB MEETING. ): CAMP IS COMING OH! xD

美丽的主题曲

我看著镜子里面的自己
不知道为什么我会失去你
闭上了眼睛回味这段爱情
学习忘记
能不哭泣
我想不想一个人旅行
耳机里听著自得其乐歌曲
遇见陌生人
我也不会有所怀疑
生命没有你
明天仍为自己继续美丽
世界只有个你
谁也不能代替
如何把伤心权利
换成快乐的能力
什么才是爱情
如何挥别过去
若有人再说爱我
我还有没有勇气靠近
我愿不愿意相信我自己
有一首原创美丽主题曲
不需要别人
也能在你生命流行
早晚有一天
还会遇到粉丝遇到知音
世界只有个你
谁也不能代替
如何把伤心权利
换成快乐的能力
什么才是爱情
如何挥别过去
若有人再说爱我
要选择微笑还是离去
世界只有个你
谁也不能代替
如何把伤心权利
换成快乐的能力
什么才是爱情
如何挥别过去
若有人再说爱我
我看著镜子里的自己

Nice song , (:
I wanna chalet , a BBQ would be good enough.
Anyone? HAHAHA. ;D


sooner later, you're gonna drive me nuts. spare a thought for me. please?

Currently hesitating if i should order the lenses from a blogshop.
Wonder if its safe. LOL.
Bu its hella cheap , 13$ for a pair.
Haha.
Literature wasn't hard i suppose?
How hard is it to crap through the entire paper? No hard at all. HAHAHA. ;D
At the most, I'll just fail it. Not a problem really.
Bused to WS, on the bus, there were a few guailan sec ones. -.-
People talk also need to echo . Bloody hell.
Went to Mac for breakfast.
It was so damn packed.
After breakfast, went to E!hub and slacked around. Psle's over, there were alot of P6 students, running around. -.-
Never mind, quite irritating, but thinking back, was i irritating before? LOL.
Went to the fifth level, made 'friends' with siglap person. Damn funny.
Received a call from Xuelin, chiong down to fourth level cos it was too noisy and i could hardly hear. Went home afterwards.
Still unsure when is camp unity. :S
Wonder if i should be looking forward to it. I feel damn numb. LOL
Wu ping is going for camp kay. LOL.
Having Chinese paper tomorrow.
I wouldn't be surprise if i actually flunk it. After all, its Chinese. D:
My Chinese is deproving day by day, not as if my Eng is improving. -.-
Okay , i've decided. I'm gonna buy the lens online. LOL.
Getting grey i think. HEHE. ^^

Okay, i think that's all. I've been getting really touchy over small issues nowadays.
And when i get touchy, i bite real hard. LOL. That sounds wrong.
But i swear i was on the verge of exploding.
However, I'm not supposed to hate you, YES, I'm not SUPPOSED to, doesn't mean I'm not allowed to.
You're no princess get it. Why in the world should i talk to you nicely. Zzz.
Since you're so reluctant about it , forget it. The world continues revolving even without you. Not as if i need you, -.-
Damn pissed. Don't take me for granted can? PLEASE. Zzz.

Helloooooo! ^^v
Its late already and i'm having literature EOY tomorrow. :S
Definitely gonna fail it , I've never passed lit in my life before. LOL.
I'm gonna sum up my day,
In the morning, Abigail was late for school. LOL.
Sang the national anthem for 3 times? I don't remember.
Maths just spells disaster,
I wouldn't be surprised if i only scored 10/60 for Paper one.
I just feel like giving OngJingHui a fucking tight slap.
Make me fail my common test , now also make me fail my EOY. Zzz.
Who cares, i can take F&N. Hahaha. ;D
After the paper,
went for breakfast with Abigail, Rachel and Sweeteng joined us,
then went to the library. Viewed X-Tin's blog.
She is super hot. LOL. http://www.virginluvtoxic.blogspot.com/
Take a look if you have the time.
Went to Tampines with Abigail ,
walked around T1, TM, CS aimlessly.
Went home at 1 pm ++
Left house at 2.30pm++,
went to Orchard, ION with Sheryn.
Walk walk walk, shop shop shop.
My legs very pain. LOL.
The weather was super nice. Haha, ;D
Went to Tangs and saw a pair of heels , caught my eye , but apparently , i can't afford it. LOL.
Its okay, I don't need a heels . (I'm trying very hard to convince myself that i don't need one. )
Waited for Bryan and went for dinner .
I'm a super bright light bulb. LOL
After dinner, went to Paragon , Banana Republic.
The name itself just sounds so funny , no idea why.
Left Orchard at around 8.45pm?
Here i am, at home. LOL.
Kay, let me count how many LOL i have in this post.
I have SEVEN LOLs, not including this and the one above. Hahaha. ;)

And, check this out, http://chocolatepistol.blogspot.com/
HE IS DAMN F***ING HOT. xD
credits, Abigail toh. ^^

Okay, i'm back . HAHAHA. ;D
In the midst of exams, won't be updating much i guess. LOL.
Okay, its 10/10/09.