AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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“You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess”

March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010

想回到过去 , 试着抱你在怀里
想看你看的世界 ,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去 ,试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 ,这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及






Was just looking at past pictures , nice memories .
But it just made me wonder . why the hell did i fall for you?
Camp unity was fun.
But last year was great.
Shouldn't elaborate.
I'm leaving for Cheena on Fri morning.

I'm really bored.
I have no where to go to. ):
I haven't pack my luggage , but i don't feel like packing.
AHHHH.

I'm cutting off all outside connections. promise.

I haven't pack my bag for camp yet.
But i feel so nua. Don't feel like going for camp.

Alpha's having some stupid lessons now , i have no one to talk to.
Kill me. :X
Feel like dying all of a sudden, i am having serious moodswings.
I don't know why , i don't know how.
I hate to say this , but i feel helpless.
The world is just going so against me.
But i can't do anything.
This stupid feeling better go away by tomorrow , or I'll just nua in bed and forget about camp.
This year sucks to maximum , rewindddd please.
Next year's gonna be so much worse.
Trust me.

Gosh , i feel like picking a fight with someone.
Damn .











"I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell"

Pretty screwed right now . In a terrible mess , and i don't know what to do.
Wasted 5 hours of my life staring out the window yesterday night.

Some things/facts can't be changed just because i want them to.
No matter how hard i try to change, moments later , i'll be back to a square one.
Take songs for example , not listening to sad songs doesn't equals not being sad.
Listening to rock doesn't equals to being someone who doesn't gives a shit to things.

Trying to cheer up doesn't equals to being happy.
Not talking doesn't mean speechless.
Not caring doesn't mean i don't care.

真的不知道我得罪了谁,天就是要整死我. 不要的时候就一直逼我要.要的时候,就要从我身边拿走.
我累了, 认命吗?



如果我留你,你是不是不走?
But its all too late now...



我想过一件事 不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持爱情的意思
像风没有理由轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有所谓的对与错
不管时间 说着我们在一起有多坎坷

我不敢去证实 爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服 我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制 每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影 听我爱的CD
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉 为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信 这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事

我不敢去证实 爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服 我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制 每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影 听我爱的CD
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉 为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信 这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
如果你已经不能控制 每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影 听我爱的CD
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉 为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信 这般恋爱心情
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你

I wonder if you still remember this ~


Lol, i saw Eugene just now.
only two years and he changed sooo much , very wery shuai. ^^
Din know he lives in Tampines , hahaha.
Somehow regretted didn't say hi to him.
LOLOLOLOL. Huachi is my middle name.
Kay , kidding.
I go watch zheng jiaying already , bye bye bye. :DD

I'm gonna bring a huge bag for campunity , ;D

明年的日子会很难过.D:

I'm damn bored.
So i'll do this.

1. Grab your phone.
2. What is the 3rd picture in your phone ?
-Christmas light up @ Ion
3. What's your ringtone ?
- 3 by Britney spears
4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M ?
- Melissa
5. Who's the last person you called ?
- Alpha
6. Who was your last missed call from ?
-Xuelin
7. Who's the 1st person that comes up under C ?
-Carl
8. Who's your speed dial number 2 ?
-None.
9. What does your 3rd text in ur inbox say ?
-Not telling.
10. Who was your last received call from ?
-Alpha
11. What does your 2nd sentbox say ?
-Not telling.
12. How many messages are currently in your inbox ?
-2000++? No idea
13. What is the wallpaper ?
-Gb day , :)
14. Who's speed dial number 1 ?
-None.
15. Who is the 15th message from in your inbox ?
-Sophia
16. Who's the 1st person to come up under B ?
-Benjamin.
17. How many bars of signal do you currently have ?
-5
18. What network are you on ?
-Singtel
19. Name every person you have a message from in your inbox.
- Abigail , Alpha , Belle , Brian , Annabelle , Atiyya , Charlyn , Chris, Ding han , Ding ying ,Evelle , Felicia , Fiona , Glen ,Halimah , hao jun , James , Jessica, Jia en , Joseph , Jun hong, Kae uei , Lian choo , Melissa , Miss yeo , Phyllis , Priscilla , Rachel Ong , Rachel toh , Rachel Wu , Sally , Samantha , Shannon , Shermaine , Sheryn , Shih Ching , Shu zhen , Sophia , Swee teng , swee xiang , teresa , ting rui , tsz ho , wai keng , weishi , xinying , xuelin , youyan , yvonne , zhiwei,
20. What does your 6th text message in your inbox say ?
-Not telling.
21. Who is the first person in your contacts ?
-Abigail
22. Who is the last name in your contact ?
- Zoey
23. What does the last text in your inbox say ?
-Not telling.
24. What is your screen saver ?
-Gb @ airport . LOL
25. What is your balance ?
-Using line.
26. Who's the last person under H ?
-Home.
27. What is your bluetooth name ?
- avril , ♥

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[A] - Abigail.
[B] - Benjamin.
[C] - Charlyn.
[D] - Derrick.
[E] - Edmund.
[F] - Felicia.
[G] - Glen.
[H] - Haojun.
[I] - Isabelle.
[J] - Jia en.
[K] - Kae uei.
[L] - Lucas.
[M] - Mavis.
[N] - Nicholas.
[O] -
[P] - Phyllis.
[Q] -
[R] - Rachel Toh.
[S] - Sheryn.
[T] - Tiongtuck.
[U] -
[V] - Vincent.
[W] - Weishi.
[X] - Xavier.
[Y] - Youyan.
[Z] - Zhiwei.

WHAT'S YOUR BEST MEMORY OF C: Screaming together when we saw a lizard.
WOULD YOU EVER HOOK UP WITH J: Unless one day i turn les. LOL.
WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF R: Quiet?
WHAT IS L'S FAVOURITE THING TO DRINK: Starbucks coffee.
WOULD S AND G EVER DATE: N-O , NO!
WHAT IS THE WORD M SAYS THE MOST: Wait wait wait , let me think. LOL.
WHAT IS B'S SHOE SIZE: 9, i think?
DO YOU KNOW ANY SECRETS ABOUT P: Don't think so.
WHO IS W'S BEST FRIEND: Brothers? Erm , Chris , Lucas? , Alpha.
WOULD YOU TRUST F WITH A SECRET: Of course!
DO YOU HAVE E'S PHONE NUMBER: Yeah of course.
WHAT WAS THE MOST AWKWARD SITUATION YOU FOUND YOURSELF IN WITH O: There's no O. LOL
WHAT'S H'S STYLE LIKE: Lol, i don't think i should type it out here.
IF YOU COULD CHANGE ANYTHING ABOUT D, WHAT WOULD IT BE: Don't leave S'pore.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CALLED K: No idea.
THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH A IS: We're gonna be in the same class for 4 years , and we're going to the same polythecnic. :D
WHAT'S THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN D AND J: Nothing?
DOES U HAVE ANY SIBILINGS: There's no U.
B'S FAVOURITE COLOUR IS: Black , purple , grey
HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT/MISUNDERSTANDING WITH Y: Nope. Misunderstanding , yes.
ARE G AND T FRIENDS: Nope
DOES V PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: Drums and guitar i think.
WHAT IS K'S MIDDLE NAME: Whats a middle name? LOL.
HAVE YOU BEEN TO Z'S HOUSE BEFORE: Nope.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WATCH A MOVIE WITH R: Err , i forgot , but we are going for one later. LOL.
WHAT'S THE BEST THING ABOUT C: Can tell her everything.
WHEN'S THE NEXT TIME YOU'LL SEE F: Hm , i have no idea
WHAT DO YOU AND B TALK ABOUT THE MOST: His zharbor.
HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN INTO TROUBLE WITH X: Nope.
WHAT WOULD K AND T BE LIKE AS A COUPLE: GAY!
THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING ABOUT L IS: He always think he's right.
BEST MEMORY WITH H: No idea. LOL.
HOW DID YOU MEET S: Erm, i few years back at church i think.
DOES A HAVE A BF/GF: Nope.
DO YOU LIVE CLOSE TO G: Pasir ris and tampines near? LOL
WHAT DID YOU AND I FIGHT ABOUT LAST: Never fight before.
WHAT IS Q'S FAVOURITE FOOD: No Q.
DO YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS WITN N: Yes.
HOW DID YOU AND K MEET: Same class in primary school.
WHEN IS THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE D: Depends on when he comes back , most probably i won't ever see him.

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-----OUT OF THE ALPHABET, WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIEND(S).. -----

IS THE LOUDEST: Benjamin?

LIVES THE FURTHEST: Derrick.

COULD YOU TRUST YOUR LIFE WITH: I don't know.

IS THE QUIETEST: Isabelle.

KNOWS YOU THE BEST: Abigail? Jia en? Sheryn? Lucas? Weishi?

MAKES YOU LAUGHT THE MOST: Zhiwei & Edmund?

WAS YOUR FIRST FRIEND: FIrst friend? Of my life or ? LOL.

IS THE SMARTEST: Youyan.


Okay , i'm still bored. :X
Charlotte went for a job interview. Jealous. D:
I'm going out later with sophia , rachel , yvonne. ^^
I need to find something to entertain myself before i rot to death.
3 more days to campp unityyyyy. :]

This is something random ,
I think i will have a hard time in sec 3.
Ask me why personally if you wanna know. LOL.
Kay , really damn random . :X

GOODBYE PEOPLE!

Aloha ,
looks like i'm gonna rot at home today. -.-
Was supposed to meet cereal at ECP @ 8am.
But i overslept. :X
Forgot to set alarm , and i silent my phone.
What a pig. -.-

Okay , anyway . I did free labour for my aunt yesterday.
But she's gonna hire me when i return from my trip . LOL.

I've got nothing to say , so , bye bye.

i'm gonna cut off all connections.

ALOHA!!! ^^


Okay, i got into 3/4 . Disappointed , well , just a bit though.
But i guess its still alright . But , no offence. 3/4 sounds pretty dumb. LOL.
Abigail toh is in the same class as me. ;)
Apparently , not all things go my way.
最不希望发生的东西已经发生了,我还要看她的脸两年, 忍,忍,忍.

I think i've been blogging crap for the pass few days. But nevermind.
One thing's for sure, i won't contract flu for the next 1 year. -.-
Anyway ,
I went out with Alpha yesterday to IMM , it was big. really big.
Alot of outlet stores there, cheap but not good quality.
It was raining monkeys and donkeys ,
was drenched when walking from the mrt.
Went to bugis in the evening , shopped around and went to Iluma.
Slacked at the arcade and met up with (iforgotthename) , Lol.

Cabbed back to Tampines and went to Tampines 1 for dinner.
HSH@ 9.

Couldn't get to sleep last night. :X
Was playing guitar rock tour until Alpha called and had conference with
(iforgetthename) till 2am. -.-
I think i need to get a mask and cover my face cos i really look like shitzxzxz.
My eyebags , seriously cmi.
I look damn caolao , -.-
Better find a way to fix my screwed up face before i step out of my house.
LOL. kay , not funny at all.

Wo lai holy yi xia. ^^








Ha , I'm going for an injection later.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!! D:
Kay , i'm making a big fuss outta nothing. LOL.
HAHAHAH , sorry . I today sot sot one.
I really got nothing to update manzxzxzxz.

okay , byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye.
hahahaha.


MOVIE MARATHON ANYONE????? ^^

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

I'm super bored right now , at my aunt's office somewhere at Redhill. LOL.
Last night was pretty awesome.
Went to Orchard with my mum to catch the Christmas light up.
There were alot of Boys' Brigade there. LOL.
Saw 103rd BB too.
Took quite alot of pictures .
Haha , went to Plaza Sing , shopped around.
HSH @ 11.



Wonder when you're coming back ....

I SWEAR I HATE YOU .

HOW MANY TIMES MUST I SAY THIS?

I GUESS YOU THINK THAT ITS NOT YOUR FAULT HUH?!

KINDLY USE YOUR BRAINS , FOR GOD'S SAKE.

DON'T JUST KNOW HOW TO CTRL+C , CTRL+V HAO

BU HAO??? TAMADE NI. I KNOW YOU STILL WON'T

THINK THAT I'M TALKING BOUT YOU LA , COS YOUR

FACE TO THICK LIAO MA. I DON'T BELIEVE YOU DON'T

I DON'T LIKE YOU KAY.

WANT CTRL+C , DO IT SMARTLY KAY , IDIOT.


fucking bitch ruin my mood.
going out with alpha to clark quay , bye.

Class chalet = Speechless


How could you change so much? HOW??
Despite all the things you done , i still believe that you're good by nature. I really hope you will wake up and realise what you've done.
I'll never forget all the things you told me , all the things you taught me.
Because i believe , you will change. (:

So that's how it feels when you get over someone.

HAHAHA. :D
Okay , chalet's tomorrow! ^^v

Abigail came over to bake today. LOL,
pictures up when i have the time.

Currently downloading 'high' songs for tomorrow.
For the very first time, there are so many 'happy' songs in my computer.
Kay, its gonna stay this way. :D

I'm pretty worried for my plurk.
I'm afraid my karma will drop. D:
LOL.

Kaykay , byebye. xD

ALOHA! ^^v
Kay , I'm back home.
Went to Bugis today to 求签。
Guess what , if it was in the past , i would be jumping for joy.
But apparently , i didn't , I felt NUMB. LOLLLLLL. :D

一个月，一个月，一个月，一个月，一个月。

One month , one month , one month , one month , one month!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

KAY , I'M GOING CRAZY SOON.

I SAW A DAMN HANDSOME ANGMOH LOOKING GUY ON THE TRAIN TODAY.

DAMN HOT BODOH! HAHAHAHA. ^^

从今天开始，我决定了，把你埋在心底，不忘记，但你不再是我的绊脚石。

CLASS CHALET , THURSDAY! ^^

ALOHA LOYANG , POOL TERRACE 9.

HAHAHAHA. ;D


Listening to sad songs , doesn't means emoing. It means that i'm emotional kay.
Moving on, doesn't mean getting some one new. Kay? LOL.
Abigail's coming over tomorrow to bake. Hahaha.
Hopefully she won't turn the kitchen upside down like what Sheryn did. xD
Goodbye! :}

Did some mass deleting.
Deleted 1753 items. Kinda proud of myself. But i don't know what i did that for.

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time with all your time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life without you could never be right

As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you

And as long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I'll ever love

As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me
I'll never get over you getting over me
Never get over you getting over
I'll never get over you getting over me


I seriously hope that it wouldn't rain on class chalet.


Her words just keeps ringing in my head...