Love still stands when all else has fallen.
AVRIL
Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth
Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥
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“You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess”
I'm sorry.
Saturday, February 13, 2010 || 12:44 AM
The only thing that i ever would regret is i actually got people non related to this matter into trouble.
Paul Ng's right, indeed i have good friends. One of them i only got to know him this year, and he went to that extent of maybe getting himself into trouble to help me.
I know that this issue caused alot of disappointments. I'm sincerely sorry.
Through this incident, i've seen some of the teacher's true colours. Which teachers are willing to believe what you said, which teachers are gonna judge you by what they think you did when they themselves wasn't even involved.
I understand that I'm the biggest 'loser' in this game, i lost the most things.
But I'm prepared to leave Gb anytime.
Although I'll definitely not bear to, but well, i understand thats the consequence.
After all, when the trust is lost, you'll no longer get it back.
Miss Yeo was notified.
I've got no idea how i'm supposed to face her.
I really learned alot of things in Gb, i even got to know real cool people from Gb, i got to know God through Gb, i was given alot of chances by Gb.
In a blink of an eye, i've been in this awesome cca for 3 years. Although i admit that in this 3 years, i wasn't very happy some times regarding some of the issues. But the good memories overturns the bad ones.
Had awesome relationships with the seniors, juniors and people from my batch who rocks ttm, esp sophia and xinying. (:
No idea why, today in the general office when Paul ng was asking about my cca, my tears just flowed. Haha, most probably i already knew something like this is gonna happen.
Some people asked, do you think what you did as worth it?
I said YES.
But when it comes to Gb, No.
I knew from the very beginning, when i decided to confront her, i knew this would happen.
I just din stop.
I don't think i'm fit to be a part of Gb. "Seek, Serve and Follow Christ"
None of those actions was Christ like. None of those was what a Gb girl would do.
Perhaps to some people, cca is only an extra thing, but to me, its like the world.
Last year's speech day, I'd never forget what i went through. It was something much more than being isolated.
To me, its something about having the determination and perseverance to prove to Miss chua that I'm not the sort who gives up easily.
But what i've proven now to teachers are i'm a bad influence to friends around me, i use force to settle matters.
The thought of wanting to come back to help after i graduate just makes me feel like laughing.
Never plan things ahead. Cos you never know whats gonna happen tomorrow.
The thought of wanting to go for the audition for command shouting, the thought of wanting to go for the National day parade, the thought of wanting to be in the GOH contingent for speech day, the thought of wanting to have a drill test, the thought if wanting the seniors to throw a farewell party, the thought of wanting to actually become a drill instructor. All these, they are all meaningless already.
Mr Ng was still teaching me how to manage the cca, but i doubt i will need the advices now.
No matter how much you love something, it'll be gone one day.
Time heals all wounds.