AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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“You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess”

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Last day of the week tmr.
GOOD FRIDAY'S COMING! WEEEEEEEE!~~~~
AWESOME.
CHC with Gabriel's cell ! :D :D :D

What an awesome day. I'm not being sarcastic.
Today was an awesome dayyyyy. :D
Started norm, ended with a BLASTTTTTT.

MRTED to tamp with (inserts name)
Hahhahahahahaha. :D
Met Jocelyn there, waited for her like half an hour to 45 min? -.-
Here am i , HOMEEEE.
hehehehehehehe
I'M HIGH TTM.

Oh and, I'm supposed to be saving up for my guitar.
BUT.
I just withdrew money from my bank and that means that i'm even further away from my GOALLLL.

There’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing and trying to fix everything.
But it’s not giving up.
It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and their crap.

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THIS MAN. :D

Okay, speech day practice tmr. ):
Hm, time fliesssssss.
SPEECH DAY'S COMING.
SO IS MYE.
SCREW ME, SCREW CHEM.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~

No matter how many coins you toss in the fountain, how many wishes you make at 11:11, or how many fingers you cross, if it’s not meant to be, then it won’t happen.

You might not know it, but the slap in my face was exacty what i just needed. thank you.
I have no idea what to do now. my life, screwed. No more fairytale. you want it, you fight for it, thats the world i'm living in now. fucking tired, how i wish i could know how he feels, what he is thinking, God, save me please.





Sometimes it’s easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings. Sometimes it’s easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes it’s easier to be numb towards certain people, so I don’t let them get too close. Sometimes I’m scared, but when I act numb towards you, it doesn’t mean I don’t care. It means I care too much.

Life changes every minute of every day.
You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend.
You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize that all along you’ve been loved.
You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that.
You really wish you hadn’t done that. You learn from that and are glad that you did.
You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies.
You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you.
You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.


Seriously, who am i to you? I'm not a toy, not someone whom you can play with when you like it, throw away when you dont need it. fuck you, go to hell.

Awesomeee song ya. ^^
Hahahaha, school's in on monday. ,-.-
I havent even touch one single bit of my homework.
Enrolment service today, gb day camp yesterday.
2 awesome days in a row!

19.03.10

GB DAY CAMP
>School
-Team building games, captain's ball
> East coast park
-Inline skating taught by a young handsome man by the name of Clarence. LOL.
-Lunched @ MAC
-Bused back to school
>School
-Devotion by Josie
-A guy by the name of Zon from CHC came to help
-Practiced for enrolment service
-Drills
-BBQ-ed in school till 6.50pm.
-Headed to Josie's house to continue dinner
>Josie's house
-Dinnered
-Went to the park
-Had a speech
-People got too emotional
-Light sticks
>Home sweet home @ 9.15pm

20.03.10
ENROLMENT SERVICE.
>School
-Washed up the BBQ pit
>Bus ride to Fuhua Pri
-Crapped on the long bus journey
>Fuhua Pri
-Had rehearsal for performance item
-Enrolment Service started
-Praise and worship
-Song item
-Giving out of awards
-Tea reception
>Bus back to PRCS.


Went to Precious moments @ TM after the service with Rachel and Yvonne.
Saw 2 people who once made a strong impact on my life.
Ice cream at Mac. ^^v
HOME, was supposed to go to CHC but mum said NO.
-.-
Oh, whatever, I have lots of homework, and i'm damn lazy to do.
Gahs.
OKAY. NEVERMIND.
HAHAHA.
PICTURES ON FB!
BYE BYE BYE!

Happy first month, i love you. (L)

Every time I think about you, I have to remind myself

that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.


two years ago, i acted like i dont care, two years later, i'm still acting like i dont care.
in actual fact, i care more than you do. It hurts so much that i'm already feeling numb.








I love you . It's not a weight you must carry around .
I love you . It's not a box that holds you in .
I love you . It's not a standard you have to bear .
I love you . It's not a sacrifice i make .
I love you . It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon .
I love you . It's not an expectation or perfection .
I love you . It's not my life whole purpose or yours .
I love you . It's not to make you change .
I love you . It's not even to make you love me .
I love you . It's as pure & simple as that .

If you argue with him , you're hard-headed .
If you're quiet , you don't care .
If you call him , you're too clingy crazy .
If he calls you , he says you should be happy .
If you don't love him , he'll try to win you .
When you do love him , he leaves .
If you don't fuck him , you're a tease .
If you do , you're easy .
You tell him your problems , he says you're irritating .
If you don't , he says you don't trust him .
If you lecture him , you just want to argue .
If he lectures you , it's because he cares .
If you break a promise , he doesn't trust you anymore .
If he breaks it , it's because he had to .
If you cheat , he expects it to be over .
If he cheats , he wants another chance .
They're basically the same .
Guys drink to forget about girls ; girls drink to think back about the guy .
When guys are in love they become poor ; when girls are in love they become pretty .
Guys can forget , but can't forgive ; girls can forgive but can't forget .
When guys are heartbroken , they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl .
When girls are heartbroken , they try to find his characteristics in another guy .
Guys wish to be her first love , girls wish to be his last .



Well, isn't it sooooo true?
Hais, terrible start of the hols.
Wouldn't want to elaborate much, I'm very very extremely tired.
I wanna go for the youth meeting today but my niang doesn't allow.
Fcuk this world.

Lazy to attend speech day, but i have to.
Standing/marching under the hot sun. Zzz.
Killed myself by convincing myself that we're not supposed to wear cap with polo.
BUT, its a fact that we're not supposed, i mean, that's common sense what. ._.
Ah , whatever. SJAB is there for a reason.
I'm gonna be the casualty tmr.
WHATEVERRRRR. :/

I'M GONNA ON THE AIR CON AND NUA IN BED.
APPARENTLY MY MUM DOESN'T ALLOW ME OUT.
AHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!
I have poa tmr, full uni tmr, what a $%^&* day for me,

Oh, and i bought my camera.
CANON DIGITAL IXUS 105. ^^
Not a very new model, but i can only afford that.
349$ + 69$ for spare batt.
I spend money like running water.
I need a job. like seriously. -.-
Alright, i'm gonna sleep.


hello hello,
it has been a holy weekend this week.
went to chc yesterday, fcbc today.
yesterday was an awesome sat even without gb,
ate at nihon mura first, headed to expo at 5 to meet gabriel & lester.
after service ended, trained back to pasir ris and dinnered at subway.


Picturessssss.

Cock face one

Cock face two

Cock face three




Damn lazy to rotate and resize and edit.
LOL.
Hm, was nearly late for service today at fcbc cos i woke up late,
service starts at 9.45am, we reached there at 10,
so paiseh when walking in. LOL.

Supossed to head down to Mount Elizabeth, but i was lazy,
so i came home instead.
LOL.
Might be going out later to visit .

HOPEFULLY I CAN ATTEND THE YOUTH MEETING TMR AT CHC WITH PASTOR KONG.
Damn disappointed when the pastor wasn't him yesterday, ):
Oh, and
CHC IS GONNA BE AT SUNTEC CONVENTION NEXT YEAR!
SAY WOW PEOPLE!!!!

WOWWWWW!!!!!~~~~

Ain't it just awesome? Hahahaha, i'm crazy.
But i just love attending church services, just not with ( inserts someone) .
Looooolllllll.
Okay okay, i'll leave.
Byebyebyebyebye.

SPEECH DAY TMR. D:


you did your part well as my perfect guy.
but i never really did my part as your girl


Gave cross country and cheering today a miss.
Out with Jia en and Liang ying tmr.
Things are happening just too fast.
Too fast for me to catch it.
March hols, packed with speech day practices, leadership programme, a day camp.
No time for me to go out, at all. ):




Don't say it too early,
there may not be a forever.

Hello people. (:
Tmr will be my last day of school for Term 1.
Time flies huh, i thought I'll prolly have a great time in 3/4 in the beginning, but i think it turned out rather different.
In a blink of an eye, one term passed.
the first term is often the longest term, which means that term 2,3,4 will be coming really soon.
And I'll be 1 step closer to Sec 4.

I can't imagine Gb w/o the sec 4s. It'll be.....
Dead silence i suppose.
Enrolment service is on the 20th.
Kinda missed the dance we did in 2008. ):

Life is getting sucky. Like a straw.
I'm getting tired.
Tired of school, tired of life.
I go to school, to talk , to sleep, to crap, not to study.
I find myself either failing the tests, or passing it by a mark or so.
0% effort, 0% of hardwork.
I can see myself scoring 30 to 40 points for O levels if this goes on.
Gahs, bloody tired.
I'm not gonna find things to worry or whatever.
"Bo taiji mai chwei taiji. " Sounds familiar?

Alright, good night, goodbye.

To ( inserts name),

Pretty obvious that you're hell pissed/angry with me.
I guess i know what you're angry about, but i don't understand why you're angry with me.
Tried talking to you, but what you gave me was a cold shoulder.
Tried talking to you, you blocked me on msn. I know that you're pm is aiming me.
But is there a reason? If you're gonna condemn me, at least let me know why and what i did, so i won't die without knowing the reason.
I really don't like the awkwardness between us, its pretty kinda weird, but i know, that's life.
I wouldn't want you as an enemy, but i guess we currently are now.
I don't know, perhaps you think that I'm a two headed snake/backstabber or whoever.
But i swear to God that I'm not, and never will i be.
I apologise for the wrong things that you think i did.
Its up to you to see if you want to accept it, but I've done all i could to save this.





Love is a cycle, it repeats, only with a different person.

Hello, :)
Getting pretty tired nowadays. Was just doing silent reflection and i realised ( i always realise, but just don't know how to make it right, Yes. Slap me please.) something is going really wrong.
BUT i dont know how or why it went wrong.
Its like being malign for smth i din even do la . Zzz.
And I'm damn angry with (inserts name). I know its youuuuuu who said those things.
Dont ask me how i know. I JUST KNOW.
Shouldn't have trusted you. ^&*@#!

Gahs, I hate Chinese ttm.
I almost failed my newspaper report. Zzz. I wrote 3 pages leh. Only get 29/50.
Seriously, KILL ME.
There's rehearsal tmr. Not the least excited. My only motivation is ( ).
Hahahaha. ;D

And, I hope i wont have to attend X country and cheering com. ^^
IT fair is coming. I WANNA GET MY CAMERAAAAA. ;)
Alright, i'm going out now.
Goodbye. :)

Hello hello. ;)

A fun filled day. Funniest thing that happened to day in Gb was.
NO GB.
But i still had fun. Great fun.
Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. :D

I dont tell you why.

kaykay, heading over to tampines mart now.
bye.

I have to keep a distance away from you.



Hello hello. :))
So happy. No idea why. Weeeeee!~~~ :D
Alright, there's Speech day practice tmr.
So excited. Hahahaha. ;D
I practically love my life now. Though there's smth unsettled. T.T
And my class hoodie costs 35$. @#$%^&*
Damn ex right. Zzz.
Sua, take it as i donate to charity. LOOOL.

Went to BBQ chicken with Tiffany and Liangying after cheering com.
Jiaen ans zoe joined after that,
Home with Tiffany. ^^
Weeeeee!~
Damn happy nowwwwwwwww. :DDD

Kay, i'll go polish my boots and do homework.
OH.
I'm gonna lead a vulgarless life from now till speech day.
Don't ask why. :)

BYEBYEBYE.