Love still stands when all else has fallen.
AVRIL
Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth
Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥
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“You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess”
♥, take me for granted, make me feel used
Friday, March 5, 2010 || 9:12 PM
I'm tired of being alone, why don't you just come home, because i miss you so and i want you to know
Hello. Speech day sucks.
But i have to say that its better than last year's.
If i had a choice, i would never want to be there.
Seriously, whats the big deal about GOH?
So what if we're given the 'spotlight'?
Do i want it?
N-O, NO!
Because of that 'spotlight', we're expected to be the best.
Because of that 'spotlight', we're expected to be the best.
What kinda logic is that? CRAP.
Getting scolded by the teachers are alright, but getting scolded by the officers
from other UGs, doesn't seem pretty fair to me.
Scold scold scold till damn shiok. Of course, they're not scolding their
own cadets. heart of course not pain la. Zzz.
Since the BB/GB is lacking of people, why can't i join them?
Gahs.
My life is messed up now.
I should be happy with the things i have.
Seems that i have everything, but at the same time, I'm lacking something.
After all the ups and downs in life,
If i say I've learned nothing, I'm bullshitting.
But i just don't know how to apply those lessons my life.
I just keep making the same mistakes.
The Sun goes up, comes down daily, the Earth still rotates, the planets still revolve.
Me? I keep banging into the wall too.
Cos I'm doing the same things, yet I'm expecting different results.
Trying very hard to lead a clean life.
A life with no vulgarities, a life with no backstabbing, a life with no gossip.
I'm giving myself a month to not use vulgarities.
I believe I'm on my way there.
I don't know why, i don't know how, people think I'm a backstabber, thinks that I'm a two-faced bitch, thinks that I'm being the one stirring up troubles.
But i swear, I am not.
I give my word, I'll not say, means I'll not say.
I know the basic trust.
If only i could go back to sec one, when i was just a plain piece of paper, no dirt, no markings, no labellings.
I think that I'm currently a piece of paper that you can find lying in the dustbin,
damn dirty.
I'm trying to change for the better. But i doubt I'm doing that.
I just pray that i won't change for the worse.
If only, people won't change.
How great would that be?
I know that you're very disappointed in me, you don't have to suppress your feelings. I don't want to hear what happened from weishi, why cant you tell it to me? You don't have to got to the trouble of asking him things, I'm tired. perhaps it was a mistake in the beginning, i suck ttm. I'm not a good girlf, i don't think I'm worthy for you. i thank you for giving me a chance to think about what i really want. i will use this chance. thank you, (: