AVRIL

Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth

Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥


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Hello people,
Look at the date today, 31st May.
May is coming to an end, here comes June.
Which simply means that half a year is gone. Is it me or is time passing rally too fast this year?
In a blink of an eye, i'm in 3/4 for half a year.
Lots of things happened this year, these includes happy, sad, confusing and angry moments.

I thought this year would start perfectly, little did i thought, it's far from perfect.
Perhaps my expectations of perfect is too high, so nevermind about that.
Through some obstacles, made me realise what are friends for.
I wouldn't dare to say true friends, because we are still yung, we have no idea what's the makings for a true friend.
But to me, what defines it is, accepting one for who they are, sticking with them through thick and thin, not leaving them in the lurch and always helping them to find solutions for their problems. There's still alot more, but its gonna take me a day to list them down.

"In life, you lose some, you gain some."
True yea? Lots of people heard of this saying, but how many of us really think this way?
Most probably, people will just go, OH MY GOD, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE SUCH SHIT?!!!
And they will never realise all the good things that are happening around them because they're always complaining how miserable they are, how unfair life is.
I admit i am one of them.
But when i reflect, i'll ask myself, why bother complaining if your life is already in a mess?
Wouldn't it become messier if we were to complain complain and complain?
Hm, but i guess that's human's nature.
Maybe we will die if we don't complain?

This year, I've lost alot, but at the same time, i gained more than what i've lost.
Who should i thank? God? Myself? Life?
The only people i have to thank are the people around me.
"One can have all the riches in the world, but if he is without friends, he is the poorest of them all."
I'm not used to dedicating things in blogs, but i really wanna thank Jiaen & Liangying to be always there for me.
Thanks for putting up with my nonesense and stuffs. I know i can get damn irritating, but still, thanks alot. (:
Thanks to Zoe for letting me have chances to preach Christianity to you, and at the same time, i am serving God. (:
Thanks to Charlyn for knocking sense into me when i am about to fall.
There's still alot of people, but i'll just thank them in my heart.

I've converted to a Christian for almost half a year, I know i'm not leading a life of a Christian.
Its time for me to rethink how i'm supposed to lead this life of mine.
Afterall, no one knows how many chapters of life do we have left.
Today may be someone's last chapter, but they will have no idea...

I'm craving for hor fun.
Esp the one at Kallang Airport.
Fyi, my last meal was on friday.
Lol, i think i can be deity at this rate.
But my tummy is giving me attitude, can't eat anything.
So yup, hais. Cip tmr, excited? Not really.
The exciting thing is,
I'll finally be meeting Liangying and Jiaen! :DD
WOOOO~! :D
I'm working during the hols with Jiaen.
Come find me kay??? :D
From 9th June till 27th June @ Takashimaya. Wooooo!
GUITAR, HERE I COME. ^^v

Oh yea, changed my blogskin. Hahahahaha.
Kay, bye. :D

A simple random sweet text from you makes me happy for a while, but again, realising that it's not real. Up till now, every single word you speak, I don't know if it's the truth or is it fake.



HELLO.
I din expect myself to be at home at this time.
I think my mum's having PMS.
But i think she's still too young for it. LOL.
Hm,
Some of the sec twos went for corporals' camp.
Hope they will succeed in learning all leadership qualities, except for one particular person. xD
Went Suntec, Chinatown and Tanjong Pagar today with my mum.
And look at the time now, 5.30pm. -.-
I really din expect to be home at this time leh. D:
Was supposed to go town with Charlyn, but yea, my mum say NOOOOOO. D:
And and, was supposed to go out with Liang Ying tmr, but my mum say NOOOOOO. D:
And and and, today is Vesak day, mum say must pray, then i say pray for what, i also dont believe, she scold me for not believing.
LIKE WHAT THE FOOK RIGHT! D:
Hm, but well, i spent alot of money today, and i din pay for any. :D
I think i spent at least 200$. ;

Mum says that she'll keep me at home except for the days i work,
come to think of it, i'll be working everyday.
LOL. :D

I'm gonna earn for my guitar. Have to get it before July, before GSS ends!
Kay, i sound so chepskate but well, GUITAR NOT CHEAP LEH! :X
I'm gonna save money by not spending unnecessarily.
hehe, how i can keep my words.
I have alot of pictures!
Gonna do a photospam tmr. :D
BYE BYE BYE. :DD

PICTURES FIRST


Been a long day for me.
School was pretty slack, no more self study.

Did survey today, boring ttm.

Did water rocket yesterday, much boring then i thought.
But it was still fun cos its the first time.
Got splashed by water, and my scalp and nose tio sunburn.

I typing like no life. Cos no i really think i no life.

Lunched at Mac after school today with Jiaen & Liangying.

Went home, bathe, change, cabbed down to airport cos i lazy take bus, take train then change train.
Sent Shevonne off, she's heading to Melbourne to study.
One and a half years.
Sometimes i just hope that i can study overseas so that i can have a taste of the education system in angmoh countries.
I wonder how are they now.

Gb's resuming tomorrow. Having a food race.
I feel wrong now.
Feel weird. I feel like dying. D:
Is it the weather? Or is it ........ just me?

What have i done wrong to make you give me the cold shoulder?You were there, and you can treat me as if i was invisible.Just what did i do to deserve this?
Gosh, i cant stand this. you din even bother looking at me.
What happened, can i know please.

Alright, gonna do a proper post.
I'm the only one at home now and its boring to the max.
My results are seriously fooked up.
Hais. Forget it. I was the one who said. ITS ONLY MID YEAR.
I'm still feeling depressed. Super depressed.

Sometimes we're fine, sometimes we're not.
I've got no idea whether what you're speaking is the truth, or perhaps, i'm the gullible one.
Maybe you think that i'll trust you, thus you abused your trust.
Maybe, maybe, maybe.
I want to believe too, its just that your words and actions are just so doubtful.
Or maybe, i'm too sensitive.
I made up my mind to treat everything like nothing,
treat it as i've never knew you.
But when you called, all my efforts went down the drain.
I've no idea whats going on in your life. I guess you wouldn't want me to know too.
For God's sake, let me know what's going o, or leave me alone for the rest of my life.
Its like a mental torment whenever we communicate.
So i'll rather we not communicate at all, since it always comes to a dead end.

SCREW MATHS. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

IMAGINE LOSING 20 OVER MARKS JUST BECAUSE OF

CARELESSNESS.

I've got lots of things to say.
Things aren't going my way,
Damn disappointed in myself with the kind of fucked up results i got.

Was pretty confident with Math until i got back my papers and saw that numbers on the paper.
Like seriously, I'm having tuition for God's sake, yet i can still get that type of results.
I swear i was expecting something like 55 and above.
But yea, 55 , in my dreams.
I've got no idea how to face my tutor.
No idea how to tell my mum.

Social studies was another failure.
Although i didn't expect myself to pass since i did not complete the paper,
but still, i was damn disappointed.

Did not expect much for English, but at the same time, i don't really care about English.
Nothing much to say then.

Of course, I am going to fail both my sciences.
I've got no hope for POA since i screwed my balance sheet and trading account and my paper one.
Math paper 2 will pull me down even more.
OH YES. SCREW MY LIFE IF YOU'RE GONNA SCREW MY RESULTS.

That's only for the results part.
My life is currently undergoing some major changes right now.
I couldn't get use to it i admit.
I hate the feeling of being taken granted for.
Not 1, but 3.
You happy, you message me.
You happy, you call me.
You happy, you find me.
When you're busy, you forgot the fucking existence of me.
Dropping me a message to ask me to call you, and when i do, you say you're busy.
Who am i to you? Your Maria? Your Siti?
For God's sake, I'm NOT your maid.
I made up my mind to cut off connections with you, but at the same time,
I'm yearning for your message. Ironic huh?

I tried taking your words for real, i tried seeking others opinions.
But all you gave was this hot and cold attitude.
I guess i finally get the feeling of waiting for some one's message/call.
Is this karma?
Damn, i hate the feeling of being lectured as if i was your daughter.
You scold, i know its for my own good, but you disappear right after.
What's your problem? Or is it mine?
Because i admit. I am tired.
I can spend the whole night thinking without sleeping and i couldn't come to a conclusion.
I don't want you to tell other people to spread the message to me.
I want you yourself to tell me about it.
I don't want to hear it from the mouths of others.
I don't want this kinda life. Seriously.
Okay, I'm exploding soon. the weather's hot too.
You may see this, you may not. I got no idea where you went, and i guess you think i shouldn't know.
If that's the case. Let it be then.
For those who know who I'm talking about, kindly keep your lips sealed.
That's all i ask for.





Life is meant to be lived, not understood.

You must first live, then can you try to understand some small parts of experience.
If you try to comprehend life instead of living it, you examine it intellectually from a safe distance, and your loss will be two-fold.

When you solely rely on your intellect, you view life through a distorted glass-one that alters your perception and can lead you astray. Your intellect thus becomes an obstacle to living.

When you take refuge from life in your head instead of taking part, you remain as a bystander, never getting your hands dirty.


Perhaps this is the reason why i can never understand life.
try looking below the surface and you will find out who i really am.

你帶著可以折疊的愛情我在等不會變形的真心被抱在你懷裡卻要提防你愛要多聰明才能逃得過哭泣

EXAMSSS AREEE OVERRRR.
POA SUCKS TTM.
HARD LIKE SOME SHITZXZX.
HATE IT TTM.


Hahahaha.
After exams, went E!Hub FOr movie with Liangying&Jiaen.
Was supossed to watch the miley cyrus movie but something not so happy happened so watched the back up plan instead.
Pretty awesome. Hahhaha.
Hm, don't really feel like typing, so yea.
Bye people.
I just love my music playlist ttm now. :D




It’s just a lot easier to say I don’t love him anymore, than to explain all the reasons why I still do.



Hello, physics paper was $%^&*.
Chem won't be good either. Yea, I'm prepared to fail both.
I don't even know whats turning effect or what. -.-
Hahaha.
Anyway, paper ended @ 9.15,
Mac breakfast with Liangying, Jia En, Melissa & Zafrul.
Sandra and Jolina joined us after that.
Learned a new word 'TAIK"
Means shit.
When i say 'Huh?'
Zafrul says 'TAIK"
Got pretty much irritated.
LOL, but I'm a very patient person.......... NOT.

Well, time passes damn fast don't you think so?
YES, YOU!
Haha, exams are coming to an end, and in a blink of an eye, I've been in 3/4 for half a year.
Which simply means that Chinese 'o' level is just round the corner and so are EOYs.
Very soon, we'll take our O levels and move on to another stage of our life and we make friends all over again.
Secondary school life seems to pass really first, looking back I've realised we had better grab hold of every single moment or its all too late for regrets.
I think that i would become the world's richest person if i can ever invent a time machine.
Cause everyone would be vying to return to the past to make up for things that they might have done wrong.
Don't you think so?
I'm definitely one of them.
Hm, okay.
This post is getting depressing, i should just stop. :)
Its chemistry and elective tomorrow,
doubt I'm giving a damn.
Hahahaha, I'm looking forward to the holidays. :D
Bye people! (less than 3)

我们肩并肩走不到明天 终于我了解爱有期限 也许放开后我才学会 两颗心不一定到永远

H E L L O P E O P L E .

T O D AY I S T H E S T A R T O F M Y H O L I D A Y S.

cos the important papersss are overrrrr. :D
its physics tomorrow, and i've got my coffin ready. :)
BOOOO.
Chemistry will also be another failure. So, yea.
Just sucks. :X

BLAH BLAH BLAH.
I'm on sugar rush again. so yea.
bye bye bye.


perhaps i hate to admit this, but yes, i miss you.

DAMN.
I SCREWED SS.
SCREWED IT TERRIBLY.
DAMN DAMN DAMN IT.
I dont get how 3/7, 3/8 people can finish their paper. %^&*
Lol, wtv.
Can't be bothered alr.
Who cares? Its ss only. no big deal .
SLAP ME PLEASE.
AHHH.
Nevermind, i go enjoy my aircon alr.
BUAIIII.




HELO HELLO HELLO.
No doubts that people are definitely struggling with SS now!
Hehehe, i'm proud of myself to be sitting in front of the com for the past hours! :D
Well,
"This is my life" By Kasandra Kong is just so addictive!
I finished the book alr. :P
Well, I'm not gonna care about SS & MATHS tmr.
I'VE GIVEN UPPPPP.xD
Anyway, its just the MYE.
No big deal. ^^v
But i know i will regret what i just said.
So, it doesn't make a diference. :D
Weeeee. I'M HIGH HIGH HIGH.
GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!
GOD BLESS! :D

BYE BYE BYE. <3




HI BYE.
I'M FLUNKING MY WHOLE MID YEAR. :D
I'M IN HOLIDAY MOOD!!!
LALALALALALA. <3

Anyone knows how to get rid of bruises? :X
I dontknow how to go to school with a baluku on my head. D: D: D: