Love still stands when all else has fallen.
AVRIL
Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth
Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥
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i guess you owe me some explanations.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010 || 4:43 PM
I've got lots of things to say.
Things aren't going my way,
Damn disappointed in myself with the kind of fucked up results i got.
Was pretty confident with Math until i got back my papers and saw that numbers on the paper.
Like seriously, I'm having tuition for God's sake, yet i can still get that type of results.
I swear i was expecting something like 55 and above.
But yea, 55 , in my dreams.
I've got no idea how to face my tutor.
No idea how to tell my mum.
Social studies was another failure.
Although i didn't expect myself to pass since i did not complete the paper,
but still, i was damn disappointed.
Did not expect much for English, but at the same time, i don't really care about English.
Nothing much to say then.
Of course, I am going to fail both my sciences.
I've got no hope for POA since i screwed my balance sheet and trading account and my paper one.
Math paper 2 will pull me down even more.
OH YES. SCREW MY LIFE IF YOU'RE GONNA SCREW MY RESULTS.
That's only for the results part.
My life is currently undergoing some major changes right now.
I couldn't get use to it i admit.
I hate the feeling of being taken granted for.
Not 1, but 3.
You happy, you message me.
You happy, you call me.
You happy, you find me.
When you're busy, you forgot the fucking existence of me.
Dropping me a message to ask me to call you, and when i do, you say you're busy.
Who am i to you? Your Maria? Your Siti?
For God's sake, I'm NOT your maid.
I made up my mind to cut off connections with you, but at the same time,
I'm yearning for your message. Ironic huh?
I tried taking your words for real, i tried seeking others opinions.
But all you gave was this hot and cold attitude.
I guess i finally get the feeling of waiting for some one's message/call.
Is this karma?
Damn, i hate the feeling of being lectured as if i was your daughter.
You scold, i know its for my own good, but you disappear right after.
What's your problem? Or is it mine?
Because i admit. I am tired.
I can spend the whole night thinking without sleeping and i couldn't come to a conclusion.
I don't want you to tell other people to spread the message to me.
I want you yourself to tell me about it.
I don't want to hear it from the mouths of others.
I don't want this kinda life. Seriously.
Okay, I'm exploding soon. the weather's hot too.
You may see this, you may not. I got no idea where you went, and i guess you think i shouldn't know.
If that's the case. Let it be then.
For those who know who I'm talking about, kindly keep your lips sealed.
That's all i ask for.