AVRIL
Dear God, You stand when all else falls.
You make the impossible,possible.
You are the only truth
Benjamin, 6th Jan , ♥
tumblr..
bolditalicunderline
Its the first day of school, and i looked seriously haggard.
I need to blog, i need to let it all out.
I feel so suffocated now, its like the feeling two years back.
No words to explain, no words to describe.
Its just a feeling of having a huge rope tying around your chest, stopping you from breathing.
I think the reason is that its the last day of work tmr, and i can't take it.
Since 9th june, 've been working in taka for approx 9 hours a day.
As time passes, grown attached to the place and people there.
Tmr, the last day, i have no idea how to react. I gotta feeling i'll just snip an emotion nerve or something and start my mood swings.
I've made some awesome friends there, and it is all ending tmr.
We will all be leading our own lives , all back to normal.
Continuing to study, blah blah.
This holiday seemed like a fairytale to me, but once the clock strikes 12 tmr, i'm back to the harsh reality.
Alot of things happened recently, you may know, you may not know.
But sometimes, i'm tired of acting like everything's fine when its actually not.
Its like putting on a mask for every different occasion.
Sometimes i wonder who i will be without my mask.
Most prolly i wont even know myself. I've stuffed alot of things in my heart, think its gonna explode really soon.
I have no idea how to tell people, cos apparently, they have their own things to worry about.
My heart feels broken right now.
Shattered into pieces, can't glue it back. I feel like crying my eyes out, lie in the bed, never wake up. Can i?
I have no idea how to speak my mind now, cos i know if i speak my mind, alot of things wil turn out differently.
Is it wrong of me to hide my real feelings? Can you tell me what to do?
I feel helpless, i feel useless. I can't even settle my own issues , esp emotions.
I let my emotions get me, and now, i'm better off dead.
TODAY WAS WEIRD, AWKWARD, SCREWED AND FOOKED.
Though i was only there for 2 hours? But i totally enjoyed myself.
I din manage to sleep, i feel damn frigging insecure.
I miss school, feel like quitting work.
I'm scared.
How? ):
Thank God i'm starting work at 3pm.
Baozhu don't let me do closing liao. ):
Had a terrible nightmare, now i don't feel like going to school and work.
I'm typing like a primary school kid who just got a tremendous shock,
but well, i want my mummy. ):
I hope the church service goes well, should i work today ?
Or should i just call and say i'm not working?
Hais.
Hello hello!
Its my off day today and i spent the day SHOPPING. :D
Mum had an appointment at Orchard and i tagged along and gave Jiaen a shock.
Hoho. ;)
Went to Takashimaya, Ion, Wisma and Tangs.
Headed to Plaza Sing at 4 and went to bugis till 6 plus.
Last stop : Tampines Mall.
Hehe, i'm spending my money when i haven't even get my pay. :X
And, I'm pissed with the fact that i lost to a bitch cum ahlian.
Not gonna elaborate otherwise my blog will be filled with vulgarities. D:
Oh well, there's some problems with me nowadays.
Mood swings are soooooooo.... AHHHH.
I miss someone calling me a dustbin, laughing at my effing short height.
I miss you calling me a crazy girl just because i laugh over the smallest things.
I miss the way you get worried about me and spam call me at night just to ensure I'm home
I miss your scoldings and nagging.
how are you? i miss you~
BYEBYEBYE
HELLO HELLLLLOOOOOO!!!! :D
Been working, and honestly, i love my work life.
Minus the irritating kids and unreasonable mums, basically, its perrfecttt. :D
This post is just to let you guys know that , I , avriltan, is still alive. Hahaha :D
Good morning people, look at the time, 5.51am. -.-
Early like some shit.
I'm too excited for work thats why. Zzz.
I'm gonna get panda eyes for sure.
Damn it. I went to bed at 10pm and i off my phone to minimise all distractions.
In the end, i tossed and turned in bed for 2 hours. I think i slept at 12am if i'm not wrong.
And now, its 0551, i woke up @ 0500, trying to go back to lala land, but still can't.
I think i for got to book an appointment with lala land last night. Shittttt.
And i ended up listening to FABERRR DRIVEEE and JJ LIN.
Now my mood is a little bittt...
Should i say emo? Looolll.
Work's in another 4 hours time. :D
If you're bored at home, come down to taka and meet me for lunch.
Cos this pathetic woman here, has to go for lunch, ALONE, ><
Its 9th today, one of my most hated days.
Kay, random.
NO WONDER I CAN'T SLEEP LA. Tsk.
Hahahahaha, okay.
There's no one online now.
I feel like i'm the only soul alive in this world. Kay, i know i'm mad.
:DD
Maybe i should go take a shower and wake my whole family up. Hahaha. :D
Kay, i'll update on my workkk hopefully tonight??? ^^
Meeting JIAEN in 3 hours time.
Bye, ^^v
Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
Its been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but thats gonna change
Cause I'm coming back
To show you that Im keep the promise I made
When I'm with you I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you
Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah
Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.
I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.
My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.
What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet. (or theres so much i havent given you)
it seems so different with(out) a second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.
My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place to get a second chance.
Instead of holding you, I was holding out? (second chance)
I should've let you in, but I let you down (second chance)
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask? (second chance)
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.
Tonight a candle lights the room,
Tonight it's only me and you,
Your skin like gravity
Is pulling every part of me,
I fall, you and I collide
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life,
Is you and I tonight
Our eyes close the candle burns away,
But I know the fire still remains
This love is all we need
We fit together perfectly,
I fall, you and I collide
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life,
Is you and I tonight
I wanna see this through
I wanna give it all to you
Tonight a candle lights the room
Tonight, it's only me and you, oh
What if I stay forever?
What if there's no goodbye?
Frozen for a moment here in time,
Yeah,
If you tell me the sky is falling,
Or say that the stars collide,
The only thing that matters in my life,
Is you and I tonight
Tell me the sky, forever
Just you and I tonight
Tell me the sky,
What if I stay?
Just you and I tonight.
No it's not alright,
To pretend there's nothing wrong
It's the same old fight
But it's gone on way too long
You slam the door
So I scream at you
But I'm ignored
Got me thinking what's the use?
It's true
It's too late for me and you
Now it's time, time, time
Time that we admit it
Gotta say, say, say
Say that this is finished
Tried to make it work
But we just made it worse
We took it way too fast,
We couldn't make it last
We were done, done, done
Done before we started
Now we'll both end up
Bruised and broken hearted
Tried to take it slow,
But we just lost control
We gotta face the facts
And say our last goodbye
So I'm heading home
But you probably saw me leave
When you text my phone
Saying "Don't you still love me?"
You'll never change
Cause I can't say no
We need a break
But you're making it so tough, to give you up
You know I'll never get enough
Now it's time, time, time
Time that we admit it
Gotta say, say, say
Say that this is finished
Tried to make it work
But we just made it worse
We took it way too fast,
We couldn't make it last
We were done, done, done
Done before we started
Now we'll both end up
Bruised and broken hearted
Tried to take it slow,
But we just lost control
We gotta face the facts
And say our last goodbye
She said that love's the answer
But it's never free
I said this love's a cancer
Cause I know it's killing me
No it's not alright
To pretend there's nothing wrong
It's the same old fight
But it's gone on way too long
So we're finally moving on
Now it's time, time, time
Time that we admit it
Gotta say, say, say
Say that this is finished
Tried to make it work
But we just made it worse
Cause it was way too good to last
We were done, done, done
Done before we started
Now we'll both end up
Bruised and broken hearted
Tried to take it slow,
But we just lost control
We gotta face the facts
And say our last goodbye
Say our last goodbye
Our last goodbye
Say our last goodbye
Say our last goodbye.
We were seventeen
But everything
Still seems so clear to me
Whispering, and watching falling stars
From my beat up car
(I was falling, falling, I was falling)
In the parking lot,
Almost ten o' clock
We went for one last walk
I couldn't stop,
Thinking if I should try,
A kiss goodbye
(I was falling, falling, I was falling)
I'll wait forever
It's better late than never
Can't forget her
Like a movie in my mind keeps on playing
Over and over
Wanna hold her again,
I'll wait forever
Time goes by
But still I find
I can't keep you off my mind
A broken piece,
Of me I left behind
When you were mine
(I was falling, falling, I was falling)
Our last embrace
Those perfect tears
Fell down your perfect face
Your lips said words
That I just can't erase
Was this a waste?
(You were falling, falling, you were falling)
I'll wait forever
It's better late than never
Can't forget her
Like a movie in my mind keeps on playing
Over and over
Wanna hold her again,
I kept her letter in my wallet,
And her picture in my phone
She had our favourite song set as her ringtone
We had everything we wanted,
Until we let it slip away,
But we both know some things will never change
Time goes by,
But still I find,
I can't keep you off my mind
I'll wait forever
It's better late than never
Can't forget her
Like a movie in my mind keeps playing
Over and over
Wanna hold her again,
I'll wait forever (Forever)
It's better late than never
I'll wait forever (Forever)
Like a movie in my mind keeps playing (Forever)
(Forever) Over and over
(I'll wait forever)
I'll wait forever (Forever).
FABER DRIVE FTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Alright, the guy sitting in the middle of the photo is the drummer, Andrew Stricko, and the guy standing is the lead singer, Dave Faber.
the drummer is damn hot, do you agree? ^^v
Hahahahaha. :D
Will be working with 2 other guys together with Jiaen!
GOT SECRET TO TELL YOUUUUU!!!
SHHHH
Okay, sorry if i wasted your time.
E
B
Y
E
!
!
Went IKEA instead with Sweeteng& Xinying.
ITS LARRY'S BIRTHDAYYY TMRRRR!!
CHC hit the headlines once again.
Its on the newspaper, chinese and english, not sure about the malay/tamil.
Its on yahoo news, xinmsn etc.
Just google it and tada.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1060093/1/.html
http://news.xin.msn.com/en/singapore/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4121597
http://www.todayonline.com/Singapore/EDC100601-0000111/City-Harvest-probe
Is it ridiculous or what? When i was reading, i felt like laughing.
Alot of people think that its the doings of some people who are green eyed about how successful CHC is.
Otherwise, it might be because of the Suntec convention hall becoming the church in next year.
But, its still ridiculous isn't it?
Okay, doesn't matter.
Lol, i'm just bored, thats why this post's here. :X
Maybe its time for me to start on my homework...
hmmmmm. maybe, kay, bye. (: