Dear crush,
Have you any idea how mush you crushed me?
But come to think of it, i was the one who allowed myself to be crushed by you.
Life's fair, isn't it?
I crushed you, then you crushed me.
The only part's that unfair is, you've crushed me for too long.
So long that i can't breathe.

SIMJIAEN. ♥
Friends since Sec 1, do you remember how we actually started talking
and begin our "Airen" thingy?
I would have to say its extremely hilarious.
But again, i guess its God's work.
Because of a misunderstanding, because of a ridiculous question
we started sharing heart to heart talks.
Though we've been through really a lot of quarrels,
misunderstandings, its all thanks to all this small tiffs that made our
relationship stronger.
Also, i have to thank bitches/stabbers for entering our friendship.
Cos thats what made it stringer. :D
This year, have been indeed smooth sailing, i enjoyed working
at Taka with you. (:
Starting work in 2 weeks time.
i know you're excited. ^^
I thank God for having you as a wonderful friend.
Hope our friendship will last till we are all old and haggard,
♥

TANGLIANGYING. ♥
I would say our friendship is pretty special.
Sec 1, we became close because of some guys thing.
Sec 2, we thought we hated each other.
When i looked at the class i was assigned to,
I was like HOLY MAMA.
Then there comes TYY, asking me if i hate you,
then i was like, NO, i thought you hated me.
And here we are, in this class filled with awesome people, my beloved 3/4♥
Though this year seems short, I'm really glad i met you, once again,
and you play an extremely important part in my life.
I'm really glad you entered my life and made it wonderful again.
I thank God for having you as a wonderful friend.
Hope our friendship will last till we are all old and haggard,
♥


GIRLS' BRIGADE ♥
Have you any idea how much all of you mean to me?
I consider girls' brigade as my best friend, because we've been
through sweat, tears and blood.
I love every single one of you.
Of course, i would have to thank the seniors, esp Sophia and Yvonne.
If not for them, I wouldn't know the spirit of gb.
I considered gb as my best friend, because you guys have caused me quite
a lot of heartache.
3 years, i'm stepping down next year, hope you guys will continue
the gb spirit, never say die.
If not for God, we wouldn't have come this far.
♥

• Day 1 — Your Best Friend
• Day 2 — Your Crush
• Day 3 — Your parents
• Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
• Day 5 — Your dreams
• Day 6 — A stranger
• Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
• Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
• Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
• Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
• Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
• Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
• Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
• Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
• Day 15 — The person you miss the most
• Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
• Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
• Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
• Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
• Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
• Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
• Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
• Day 23 — The last person you kissed
• Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
• Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
• Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
• Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
• Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
• Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
• Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I was telling Jiaen that if i do this, i would be writing letters to the same person
for some of the days.
Obviously the content would be different,
but its still stupid ya?
I decided to do it both on tumblr and blogger.
Blogger is locked, so no one except close friends can read it.
I decided to take a chance, hoping that one day, you will pass by my tumblr, and realise,
everything is about you.

I'll start my Day 1 today,
before i head out. (:

Halloween today and tomorrow, do i have a life?

Dear Sophia tan,
hope you're coping well with your O's.
Its gonna sound niangggg,
but, i miss youuuu. ):
Jiayou for all that you do!
Gb help you to add oil!



Okay, stayed home today,
stomach hurts like abcdefg.
Dont know go to the toilet how many times. LOL.
Okay, I'm gonna do the 30 days of letter writing on 1st Nov,
sorry darling for pangsehing you today. :S
I still have to chiong my tuition homework, how sad. D:
BYE

I CUT MY HAIR, AND YEA, ITS SCREWED.

I LOVE SENTOSA.
BUT THERE'S NO SUN. ):

I love pizzas @ pizza hut.
For the first time in my life, i tried lasagna,
tasted not-very-my-taste.
I still like pizza. :D
Thanks XK, even though you won't see this,
But, God will bless your kind heart. ^^
Minus the fact that you pushed me into sea,
sea water attacked my eyes and hair, you will be blessed.
LOL!
After dinner at Harbourfront, went back to Vivo, slacked around,
took group photo, HSH! :D
Alright, goodbye people.

Alright, second 'post'
Disclaimer: Gonna get depressing.


This is my 400th post, was looking back at my archives.
I've started blogging since Mar 2009.
Which is only last year. I read through my archives just now, and i realised,
i ought to be sent to IMH.
Don't ask me why, read it yourself.
It has been awhile since i posted something normal,
at least to me.
Okay, here goes.


I took a couple of minutes to digest the photo up there.
If you're smart, you'll get it straight away.
When i meant smart, i meant love smart.
In the beginning, I thought i was the second one.
Then i thought to myself,
Do i feel sad when I'm thinking of you?
My heart answered, "No".
That obviously made me the first.
Which made absolute sense, because when i think of you,
it put a smile on my face.
So, what exactly does it mean?
No idea yet, when i get it, I'll tell you.



I hardly speak about how i really feel.
Except maybe to a minority, i would rather say i don't care, i don't know, than to explain my thoughts and feelings to all the people in the world who is interested to know how my life went haywire, after i met a guy who totally screw it.
Last time, I told everyone how i felt.
Not now anymore, because it just shows that i'm weak.
And i totally hate it when people sympathies me.



This year, i would dare to say that i have grown up.
More of mentally.
The old me would most probably coop myself under the blanket and cry myself to sleep whenever i face a problem.
This year, I wouldn't even give a shit.
You may say that I'm cold blooded,
But let me tell you, I'm numb.
I've decided to strive to be a nvqiangren, because i realised,
the only person you can trust is yourself.
Because the world tells you the things that you like to hear,
not necessarily the truth.


I used to thought i was stucked in the past.
Then i realised, maybe i am, but my situation is much better than dumb-asses
who committed suicide because of love.


I dare to say I've changed, I'm no longer who i used to be.
The soft spoken Avril has become a part of history.
Maybe its the circumstances that forced me to speak up,
maybe its because i'm dead tired to agree with things i totally disagree.
Maybe.


A lot of people have been misunderstanding me.
But honestly, I'm too tired to explain any further.
I'm just disappointed,
after 3 years, you just showed that you don't know me at all.


Its 23rd Oct, and i am losing track of myself and time.
I begin to wonder why I am studying.
I begin to wonder why I care.
I begin to wonder what exactly is the word "love"
that everyone speaks of so easily.
They made this 4 letter word sound so easy.
But do they actually know what it actually means?


Is this love?
Well, different people may have different thoughts to this.
My thought, its love.
Because,


I don't wish to be that old lady.

Confirmed our jobs today, (:

Do drop by me at Taka.
I LOVE WARAKU'S PASTA.
♥♥♥♥♥

I'm working during the holidays again.
Feel happy for me.
Getting back results on tuesday.
Pray for me.
Chinese o levels in i don't know when.
Please tell me.

Going out to vivo now.
Buy things for me.

LOL. I don't know what's this for.
But yea, i;m bored. :D

BYEBYEBYE. <:

Avril, chill.

Its only 13 marks, treat it as a lesson learned.







After all, you've always been paying school fees to life, haven't you?

Just that tinge of disappointment to know you lied.

Two papers down.

If you were wondering what i wrote about the composition,

"Opportunities"

What happened yesterday made me felt like writing that.

As humans, i believe we are all given an equal opportunity to make things right.

We are given an equal amount of time.

I guess what made a difference was sheer luck.

or you just live with regrets.

I was never the person who knew how to cherish things.

I reflected last night while reading through my English file.

If you guy were wondering why i actually got so emotional yesterday,

let me tell you,

the feeling of being abandoned,

the feeling of knowing you have utterly disappointed

someone despite the person putting in 101% of effort to help you just

sucks to the f max.

I stared at my English file, looking through the past worksheets,

looking at all the worksheets and extra materials she provided us with, looking

at every single comment she wrote on my compositions.

Which teacher will actually go that extra miles to compile good essays?

Which teacher will comment on every single thing you wrote?

In these 3 years, she has been the best English teacher you can ever find.

But now, we all lost a good teacher.

Because of our attitude towards this subject, i believe she has given up.

The guys give no hoot to English.

And now, she chose 3/8 over us.

Till now, i still couldn't believe it.

I don't want her to abandon us.

Please stay~